Hey fellas. I want to bring something to the attention of The Expanse and the Men IN it. Yesterday I was navigating a space of un-safety where my camping/sleeping gear was taken from my campsite. This disruption to my wholeness activated a lot of anger within me, and because I didn't sufficiently sit with it and metabolize it, it got misdirected toward my fellow Man @Steven Cruz in my interaction with him. You can see our exchange here. My misdirected anger and the borderline violence of my languaging did NOT sit well with me. Especially after receiving another Man's perspective and feedback on it. I have directly contacted Steven and apologized for how I engaged with him and he was gracious enough to resolve and repair the affect of my comments. I want to bring this attention to the group for multiple reasons- here are a few. 1. I am human just like everyone else. I'm not an AI Chatbot. 2. While I am a co-founder and co-creator of this container, I still fumble, falter and forget ALL THE TIME. I am ALWAYS LEARNING. 3. I have found over and over again that when I OWN MY SPACE, ENERGY AND EXPRESSION with myself and ESPECIALLY with others- I ALWAYS feel lighter. 4. While I did not do anything WRONG or shameful, my expression and its impact was not how I intended it. This will NOT be the last time this happens in here or ANYWHERE. 5. If you see or hear me say something that doesn't land, doesn't resonate or inspires excessive dis-ease in you- PLEASE LET ME KNOW. Thanks you for patience and grace as I learn. After all I'm incredibly grateful for how things transpired because it led to an amazing exchange with @Tah Whitty. The exchange is recorded and linked below. I HIGHLY ENCOURAGE YOU TO LISTEN. Thank you all for being here on this ride with us. It's a pleasure and an honor to co-create this container and this Life with y'all.

I am sort of stuck in a loop of low currency energetically and financially, lack of solid strategy, taking half actions, and not commiting myself to accountability. Awarness and Intention i have down,its the other parts i need help with I know I am worth more than what they will pay me at a job, but i am so burrnt out on working in the System. I know we all been there at some point, i feel like I dont want to go to a regular job, but if I dont I wont be able to take care of my financial needs and provide for my family.

Video is a bit on the longer side, but it's basically my thoughts on how I navigated through it once I noticed it, and my "March 2023" story. https://www.loom.com/share/4557382b7eab49948b4ec15e6c58ef7e

I gotta tell you. It was pretty awesome. They just get better and better. They depth that we got into from Friday-Sunday was pretty profound. There was a LOT of talk from the women around the challenges their men have been experiencing and the challenges they have faced interacting with me who are questioning themselves and don't have solid footing in their lives in emotional and relational spaces. I had quite a few conversations around their men having solid career paths but their personal lives were the biggest challenges. I know at some point @Corbin Sellers and @Jared Johnson are considering putting some men's retreats together. Would that be something y'all would be interested in exploring? Hit the poll and drop a comment below!

Wasn't expecting to share this, but I'm not ashamed, and the ending prompt was to share, so I share. Entry 1: 03-22-2026 1. What brought me here? My friend Ankhara made me notice it. I joined and stayed because I support the mission 2. Where do I feel ready to grow? My outreach to others, giving my system to those who may need it. 3. What does being a man mean to me today? Provider, Protector, and Present, in all aspects of life. 4. Where am I feeling free in my life? When I am being of help, serving my community at my capacity so that I may help it grow, and it in turn helps me grow. 5. Where am I feeling Stuck in my life? Right now, income. I have none. I’m working on fumes and family assistance. That, and my wife wins at online slots lol. I'm not worried, because I know that everything works out exactly as it should, exactly WHEN it should, not before. I will be making another post shortly after finishing the "Start Here," but I may post more before then, depending on the rest of that course.