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The man with whom I have three children and (still) share a flat manages my time. For eight years, more or less, I have been in a situation where my time depends on that person. He has financial problems and works a lot, but he forgets that at home there is a person who is with the children and simply wants to have a life of her own. I am almost never informed about what the day will look like, and if I ask, it usually ends in an argument. Besides, he is often aggressive towards the children (mentally, physically almost never, except for small slaps on the head or pulling their ears, what i cannot stand). Today, I suggested to him how we could deal with this so that everyone would have some free time, but he doesn't care. I am thinking about divorce, then someone else will decide when the father should take care of the children and when I should, and I will finally be able to do something, also financially. During these eight years, I have not established many deeper relationships because I was mostly at home with the children and learning to speak german, that is why i have not much help, companionship. Has anyone been through or witnessed such a situation and knows if there is any institution that can help in such situations on a legal basis without divorce? I really need stability in managing my time. Every day, I practise being present and not worrying about it so much, just being, but my nervous system has its limits. I am telling God what I need: time on my own and peace. However I am also looking for practical help so that someone will finally establish the time the father is with children. I know that it comes one day on its own, it is already coming...Much Love and many blessings:))

Hello, my name is Susana. I'm 21 years old, trilingual, and still learning more languages—I’m a huge language enthusiast. This year, I’ve truly connected to God as part of my self-discovery journey. I’ve been praying before every meal with gratitude for everything, and having these mind-opening conversations with myself and God. I’ve never been happier... but I also struggle with understanding who I truly am. I feel I’m someone easily influenced, like a chameleon that changes with every connection. I consider myself a very empathetic person; to me, there’s no strict right or wrong, and I know human beings are naturally contradictory. But often, I change my own conceptions or ideas after listening to someone or even after watching videos online. It’s as though my own ideas aren’t strong or convincing enough for me. I don’t really like this idea of being “not authentic” or “not myself,” and I wonder if I’m people-pleasing—though it doesn’t entirely feel that way either. Does anyone understand what I’m trying to express? Is it wrong to be easily influenced? I’ve been writing a lot about my own ideas and trying to form a clearer concept of what I believe. But I still have this feeling that maybe the things that Im writing are not really myself.. maybe I’m not really myself. 🤔 (maybe iam overthinking)