Pattern Break · Spiritual Rebels

Pattern Break

So since joining I've come to notice some patterns that need to break in the way that I show up at work I've noticed that the same pattern from childhood that hyper vigilance and fear around getting it wrong pops up and I can't help but think and overthink and meaning make and try to make sense of it all. Part of me feels that my attachment to my business partner and best friend is really a trauma bond and like my heart isn't in the Business anymore...however there is this fear of hurting her which is a fear of disappointing her which I know is not mine to control but it's still very difficult. Part of me wants to let go and completely sever ties and then part of me wants to remain loyal and stay the course. Here's the conflicting part she's been absolutely monumental to my growth and assisted me with getting myself out there again, making connections,and facing fears. And I feel like that's where she's at right now and I know my support is valuable but it feels like it's not enough...I don't know it feels like it's time to end it but there's something holding me back from doing so

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