Looking for advice (hopefully find some likeminded people also)

Nov '25 (edited) • Q & A / Ask anything.

So my whole life I loved music but ever since I took drugs the enjoyment sky rocketed (weed and psychedelics). I’d be listening and crying tears of ecstasy, the most joy I think any1 could have for hours on end but recently my mind has become more aware of my body awareness , I noticed that my music sessions were also making my pelvic floor contracted so I can’t listen to music the same way wit the same movements as before so I stopped for now. Anytime I listen to music now I go back to my old body posture, relaxed/slouched so I had to cut it out completely pretty much and my main joy of life feels gone. The only reason I’m doing this also is cuz I know you can get kundalini and have 100x better hearing and hear all the sounds in the music which in turn I would avoid drugs. And Yh I know the music I listen to is deemed to be demonic but I don’t care. There’s no point in me living if I can’t enjoy my music. It’s pretty much life or death cuz everything feels dull to me without it. Every1 online says to not force kundalini but I don’t see any other option. It’s either that or drugs. I tried to ignore the want for kundalini but it’s always there 24/7 everyday. What would u guys do in my situation. My main option rn it seems is to live in my lucid dreams cuz the songs I hear there is like I’m on truffles and it’s song that no one has heard before like my mind is making up new songs and I’d be geeking in the dream AND my body has no limitations there so I can move freely. The only way for me to get to that point tho is literally meditating nearly 24/7 with occasional walks outside and ofc eating. The only entertainment id get would only come from my dreams cuz id see videos and stories that id never seen before that are honestly MUCH better than watching a movie cuz im pretty much in the movie watching from different 1st person and 3rd person perspectives

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