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its time to rebuild

well my dear friends, as you know how open i’ve been about my struggles before, it’s now time.

been waiting for this far too long but with a new year in full swing…

…it’s time for me to rebuild my life officially.

i’ve been able to make great progress and started laying out my proper foundation, but now it’s time i started to add to it.

while admittedly, these years have been difficult for me, i’ve lost all semblances of my old life, i don’t look at it negatively anymore. rather i see it as a phase of burning and self destruction, to make room for something bigger.

ive had my phase of the dark ages, now its time for a renaissance. a rebirth and a rebuild, to claim back what i’ve lost and build it into something more.

this will be a long rebuild in all directions, in my personal faith and religion, my physical ability, my style and appearance, and my mental capabilities, which include my creative and rational mind put together.

so far i’ve put together a good list of the stuff i want to start learning and reading:

while im aware this is a secular community, this first section is for my fellow followers of Christ, although anyone else is welcome to read it too :)

Firstly, i’m going to be studying the Bible much more deeply and frequently now, as well as studying its original language meanings. the chapters i’m reading though:

Genesis 1-3

Exodus 25-31

1 Kings 6-8

Psalms

Proverbs 8

Ecclesiastes

Ezekiel 40-48

John 1

Revelation 21-22

the primary reasons i picked these sections is because they tie deeply into my goals of rebuild and rebirth, and they also delve deeply into the beautiful, poetic symbolism and metaphors of the Bible, Creation, architecture, and our connection to the divine.

The bible i’m currently studying is the King James Version, as i know it’s english friendly and also deeply poetic and beautiful in this sense, but to my Christian brothers do you have any recommendations for a specific edition of bible to study? I’m a Christian but not one who rejects any other denomination, so i’m open minded to study any kind. Some aid here would be great :)

Next up, books focusing on the classical liberal arts.

So far after hefty research i’ve taken an interest to:

Plato- Timaeus

Aristotle- Metaphysics

Boethius- The Consolation of Philosophy

Martianus Capella- The Marriage of Philology and Mercury

Pseudo-Dionysus- The Divine Names

Dante- The Divine Comedy (a reread for me)

Nicomachus- Introduction to Arithmatic, while also doing a deep dive for remnants of the works of Pythagoras (pythagorean fragments)

Vitruvius- De Architectura

Leon Battista Alberti- On the Art of Building

i’m also currently looking to deepen my roots with ancient christianity and theology, i want to study the works of St. Thomas Aquinas and St. Augustine.

Keep in mind i’m fairly familiar with western philosophy but mainly from studying the works of Nietzsche, Schopenhauer, and Camus, which i honestly wasn’t the biggest fan of. No shade thrown to them, but i don’t agree with their deconstructive view on a lot of aspects, i seek wisdom that REBUILDS it, my deconstruction phase is gone. If you disagree with this my friend, perfectly okay, I just want to make it clear where i want to learn.

If i were to narrow it down though, the six priority books i want to study are:

The Bible (non negotiable)

The Marriage of Philology and Mercury

The Divine Names

The Consolation of Philosophy

Introduction to Arithmetic

De Architecturia

These six cover different areas i want to improve on and learn more about. My goals are to improve as a man of faith, a musician, an artist, a fighter, and a writer. My dream is to become one who’s fluent in these fields.

now with the mental aspects worked through, it’s time for the physical ones.

i’ve found the look i want to dress in now. i thoroughly enjoy the timeless, classic fashion, a blend of an academia, and although this word has been blown out of meaning because of stupid social media trends, old money. but this isn’t a style i want because im chasing a trend, but rather something that surpasses any of them whatsoever, something that doesnt age.

i’ve lost a lot of muscle due to stress and severe grief which im still recovering from, but i’ve been consistent with hitting the gym. now i plan to optimize and maximize my time spent there and my protein intake.

my BIGGEST priority is fixing my goddamn sleep schedule. it’s been the biggest thorn in my side. this is a nobrainer for me.

and of course maxing out my skills in piano, singing, and writing. for my fantasy series i’m working on, i’ve started putting together the basic plotline and sketch for book one. I’ve spent three years worldbuilding and developing the characters, now it’s time to start writing for real!

anyways, i plan to bite this down into manageable pieces. i can’t expect big changes right away, but this is my plan for the year, a time to rebuild for good. starting slowly, starting small, to not overwhelm myself and crash and burn

now finally with all that being said, to my experienced brothers out here, do you have any extra advice for me? how to manage this right? thank you all so much.

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