When God is quiet, when it seems like He's leaving you to defend by yourself, little do you realize He is right beside you the whole time.
Maybe He's preparing you for great things, maybe He's testing you, or maybe He's using you for His glory. Whatever it may be, however hard it gets, remember that He is right there with you. And He is the loving father that literally sent His son to die so they you might have a relationship with him.
That is a loving Father.