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My story

Hey guys — I just wanted to introduce myself and share a bit of my story. My name is Bartosz. I’m from Poland and I’m 23 years old.

About three years ago an older friend called and asked if I wanted to sell drugs for him. I accepted, and afterward he taught me everything about street life. At first I was excited — at 20 or 21 I was making more money than my dad, and I felt powerful and independent. That lifestyle made me feel alive, like I was finally in control of my own destiny.

But later things started to go downhill. I began using my own supply — cocaine — and that’s when the road really started to get dark. I had trouble sleeping, suffered from insomnia, and was constantly stressed about the next day on the street. I had to be alert 24/7, always watching my back and thinking two steps ahead. The excitement slowly turned into anxiety, and the freedom I once felt became a heavy burden. We had the biggest drug line in town, so I couldn’t get any proper rest — it felt like I had to meet 300 clients a day on a bike. Sometimes I got caught by undercover officers, but I was always lucky.

I started noticing how this lifestyle was changing me — my relationships, my mood, my health. I was living for the rush, but inside I felt trapped. I realized that every choice I made on that road had consequences, and I couldn’t escape the reality that I was heading toward a place I didn’t want to end up. So, after I stopped dealing drugs non-stop, I wanted to fill the empty gap and turned to alcohol — and that didn’t go well either.

Now I find myself after my mum put me in a mental hospital for seven weeks, and I’m on medication from a doctor who said I have schizophrenia — but I really don’t have it; I’m okay. I was also abused and stalked by family members, but they called me crazy and said it never happened. Also i want to write my own autobiography. Yes — so I got to know this community because of Thor, and I really appreciate it. It helped me connect with people like you who also want to seek truth and authenticity. Blessings ❤️🙏

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