@Sylvia Dijkstra I think instructions a bit unclear for me 😂

@Sylvia Dijkstra thank you 🥰

@Nama Azubiah have you had different experiences?

@Nama Azubiah yes I do know the difference between my own heart and my own mind. I literally told you what I personally feel towards this online container & asked if you had different experiences with it. Simple and straightforward. When I personally knew someone was a “threat”, I reached out and it was sorted out. To answer you: My mind tells me endless stories, analyses everything, even tells me now I have to respond to this - even tho I am exhausted, but I allow it. It might be needed. My heart is quiet and radiating. It feels. Not as a reaction to whatever my mind speaks. (the stories of the mind can make us feel the thing as if it is real, same works with memories). My heart feels, absent of the mind’s chatter. Direct and clear communication helps us understand each other and also establish together what is real and needs intervention - or what is projection etc If you have experienced direct racism from members here, I encourage you to speak out. If not, I am sorry if I picked on the wrong thing. This is what I could personally pick on from what you shared.

@Pontus Stjernfeldt so are you saying that God just is - separate from anything else? Not male or female, just being itself. Then why do you say fatherly love? Who needed God to be the Father and why? I love to question. It sounds you do have certain sources you refer to, I respect that. But the best source out there is the heart. Others are and always will be altered in one way or another. My personal view is not contemporary at all. It holds openness to any possibilities, yet it knows the ancient truth. Which, honestly, will always be difficult to translate perfectly through words. There’s no words needed, no sources, nothing. It is felt. 😁 Sending much love to you and your family ❤️ Sendi

@Pontus Stjernfeldt okay, but here’s the contradiction - God is being itself, no gender, yet you say “Him”, “Father”. And I feel you with the wounded heart. But the ways I see it is that the more it’s cracked, the more love can come in and out of it, also from personal experience. Not because it wasn’t abundant in love, but because once it’s cracked and is still not protected, then there’s no more fear. It’s just open. And it endlessly gives and receives. Amplified abundance of love. Personally, I experience this in stages. Still a lot of fear to accept and not run away from. Just gotta sit and talk to the fear. Let it hold my hand and take it with me everywhere. Eventually, she’ll see that it’s safe. Well, honestly that’s mainly up to each of us to also recreate a safe world. It would be ideal for the heart to not be wounded at all. But maybe also the stitches on the heart’s wounds are beliefs and attachments. The true heart is not shaped by anything. The desires, fears, pride etc have nothing to do with the heart. Maybe if it would just have space to breathe, it would have its own revelation. :) Maybe. It sounds that you’re very self-aware and committed to purification of what’s not coming from the heart at all. We’re all on the same journeys, even if they look completely different. 😁

@Nama Azubiah yes, and I love myself. But real self-love is a process that does not have an end point. The more we return to our true selves, the more love we cultivate for ourselves and all the layers we have gathered through life.

@Nama Azubiah do you want to expand on what you actually mean when you say your being did not write their script or make their choices?

@Martina Knezevic again I missed some words lol sign to put the phone down 😂 you get it ❤️

@Martina Knezevic btw I love my parents and entire family to death. And have a special connection with my parents, even though one passed away and one cannot express herself the way I would need a mother to (she doesn’t need to, I feel her, there’s nothing she needs to do). So all that is healed, but it’s the connection with my brothers that might be something weighing me down. There’s still hidden resentment within me. And that I am working on. I know how important family is in shaping us. And trust me I have been the one over giving, over compassiononate, over anything and everything to have a healthy relationship with them - but it just cannot be healthy, and I had to accept and move on. Though it helped me understand so much about men, and also my trauma based attraction for these sort of dynamics. If anything, to me it feels easier to be myself around men rather than women. I feel that on the women side there is so so much conditioning (not our fault, we literally have to survive in a fucking distorted world. Even the time is distorted. For reference, search ufocaller on ig. Her life work is around natural time. I hear so many women having their business but also massively people please, go against their bodies, changing their bodies out of distorted self love, not experiencing the romantic love they are worthy of, there’s so so much that I don’t wanna repeat. Not because it’s bad or that I feel inferior or superior, but because it’s time for new ways. And I am here for that. Slowly. Doing the works like Mary Magdalene, ready to shine like Jesus lol ) And the thing is that I see how I have been conditioned too in many ways, not just by the outside system, but ofc by my own personal traumas. I literally did not have a healthy mother figure. The distorted figure appeared at around the age of 14, right when my dad passed. And I was a child not realising how much I took from her. I rebelled in a way. But I see how there are slight hidden wounds that I took from her, how certain cycles played in my life, till I was pushed to look it at closely.