After nearly 3 years of devotional celibacy, I entered into Spiritual Partnership with another who has the capacity to meet me in my practice of Oneness, Union, Expansion, and shadow work. Through the other, as our mirror, we can deepen into the inner work in a way that we can not when single. A deepening that is so powerful and expansive that it challenges everything we thought we knew of ourselves while nurturing the remembrance of who we are in our most natural state. Love. If the dating pool feels small and you have yet to find that person who can meet you, hold you, and challenge you, join me in robust discussions as we explore what it means to call in “the one” from our current state of consciousness. These conversations will be held bi-weekly, on Sundays at 12pm EST. Please join me on Substack for more in-depth reads.

As I have been in a 4 year period of awakening, I grow less tolerant of collective illusions; of false realities that society expects participation in. Christmas and the majority of holidays are a fantastic example. In every public space I am in, I am subjected to Christmas music that even dates back to the 30’ and 40’s. Religious carols, jazz, pop and so on. Music that is expressive of an immense love for a man named Jesus and his baby manger birth story. Not only are the stories of his origin of birth, location and date woefully inaccurate, it’s completely fabricated and has been fabricated in a methodical way in order to manipulate those of an older faith, paganism, or the old ways. We have no historical data that suggests Yeshua’s birth occurred on this date nor is there any mention in the Bible. But what we do know is that it was carefully chosen as well as the traditional displays of Christmas trees, wreaths and more to make it easier to convert people of the old ways into Christianity in order to make it “familiar” to them which is why religions across the world share similar stories. For the sake of familiarity and conversion. For me, I am at a place where participating in false realities that have been deliberately constructed out of manipulation to have dominance over a group of people is not an option. This does not mean I do not celebrate Yeshua as a master teacher. I celebrate him as I do all other master teachers or great Avatars who have incarnated to support global consciousness shifts. What I find unconscionable is a display of humanitarianism, public love of thy neighbor (unless they are brown), lyrical devotion that is seasonal and an abundance of gift showering that all placates to exhibitionism and holy displays that are quickly forgotten after the new year when business Q1 metrics need to be met and traffic resumes. This is more than ingrained culture that is outdated, it’s a system of control to support capitalism and corporations. Want to test my perspective? Who is responsible for the way Santa is publicly perceived from his Germanic origins? Coca Cola!

Depression is a calling to soften, surrender, and shift. A heavy whisper that, when heard, stings the lobe and confuses the ego. It is not your “shadow”, a fractal of you so dark & ugly that it must be drugged into non-existence. It can be quieted, but it cannot be silenced, for its return gains momentum as it deepens and quickens upon you, smothering you like a wetted wool blanket. The onset of depression, when met with tenderness, spaciousness, acceptance, and compassion for the “self, “comes as an invitation for the ego to reconsider and release. It is the shift that occurs just before a growth spurt. It is the collapse that allows for the catalyst of expansion. It is the innate and organic rhythm that even the earth herself must obey. We are mirrors of the planet, we too must allow our old growths to snap under the weight of its environment, limbs to bow & break and drop, and established roots to die. When we do not honor the internal shifts and the call to the little death, of the ego, then we are denying our very nature. The ego can convince us that we are unloved, that we are ugly, that we will never find a relationship, that we are not significant because we are not chosen, rich, tall, curvy, ripped, adorned in the latest fashions, or adored by the latest fashions. It is the ego that will convince you that you are broken & sick and that nothing will change. That this place of being is your damned eternal existence. It is not the ego’s fault. They have been programmed and convinced by a sick society, an unhealthy world that has brainwashed the ego into a pattern of thinking that destroys us from within. The ego believes that by studying your environment that it can keep you safe, but it is the environment that programs the ego into believing a false perception into existence. AND you are awaking, and you know that this voice, this inner chatter, doesn’t feel right. You know, in the deep vibration of your gut, chest, and throat, that this is not truth, this is simply MAYA.