4h • ✍️ Homework
HW Day 1
5 Struggles
- Insecurities: I was never a popular person in school. I was always an outcast, I was not the most athletic, never the smartest, always alone. I had a few friends here and there but no one really stuck around. My insecurities were not knowing who my dad was, not having any friends, being made fun of for being a fat kid did not help. Sports and Video games were my escapes growing up, the adrenaline in Sporting events helped me forget that I was insecure about anything, but that was only during games. Video games helped me forget about anything life related, but that was only till I had to turn the games off. Growing up I still carry most of my childhood insecurities, I am insecure about my body after being in shape a few years ago, I am insecure about my job since I don't make a lot of money, I am insecure about being interested in nerd things like Card games and Video games at 20 years old.
- Mental illness: I was never diagnosed with Depression, but I have been through some nasty Depressive episodes. I have experienced a lot of mental abuse from my Step-Dad, I don't hold anything against him since he was going through a lot himself. I got over most of my childhood trauma but some things do stick with me. Most of my mental issues stem from the loss of my Uncle in 2023, he was my best friend and was taken from my family after a nasty car accident. Lastly, what has messed with my head was losing my Sister in 2023 from pediatric cancer, I never got to meet her as she is my Sister on my biological Dad’s side, I feel guilty never going to her funeral since I was 16 and thought “I never met the kid so why should I go”. I feel and carry the guilt every day but I try to live and experience life for her.
- Obsessive and Addictive Tendencies: I have bad Obsessive and Addictive traits, I will find something and obsess over that one thing in very unhealthy ways. I mainly see myself obsessing and fantasising about being a successful Content Creator and living a free life
- Motivation: I am very motivated by money, however I lose motivation just as fast as I gain it. I am still young and never felt the low of scraping for rent money but I am trying to avoid that scenario as much as I can. I have worked crazy hours in construction for a paycheck that I was not happy with, feeling a low of seeing what time I put into that paycheck with what I took home was a huge eye opener.
- Leaving nothing behind: I am struggling with the idea of leaving nothing when I die. I want to leave behind the great stories that will be told of “ Landen did amazing work for the family, Landen opened up so many businesses”. My fear is my family not being able to tell those stories.
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5 Contrasting Wins:
- My Circle: I have built a small but super supportive group, with fans, friends, and family that support my online presence. Due to their support I have no insecurities to create and post shitty videos on the internet. The idea of making someone else’s day just a little bit better makes me feel the most joy and happiness that I have ever felt in my life.
- Mental illness: I may seek therapy in the future, but at the moment my mental illness will forever be dragged behind me. What keeps me going is thinking that my Uncle and Sister are looking down upon me and smiling from making someone's day better.
- Good Habits: I am learning to use my bad habits for good, I am obsessing over making better Content, obsessing over research and critiquing my editing. Learning how to read my analytics better and how to grow my presence across all platforms.
- Staying Motivated: I am being motivated by fantasies and numbers growing. The fantasy of providing my family generational wealth and freedom, the fantasy of retiring my parents with videos is what keeps me chasing this dragon called content creation. I will not stop until I make this my reality till the last heart beat I make.
- Taking things one step at a time: I feel as if I am overwhelming myself by looking at the picture at once, instead I have been looking at a few things at once. I have been feeling the pressure of adulthood and putting too much on myself at once, but things have gotten better when I take a few things on at once. I will go to work, come home and decompress while planning what to stream and or record the next couple days, stream then edit the footage for a few hours. I can manage being a young adult while chasing my dream this way.
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Emotion Attempting to Evoke: Curiosity
(Hook)
“Did you know every influencer is relying on this one thing to stay motivated”
(Visual Concept)
Me scrolling on my computer, phone, and Ipad in different locations till I reach my gym
(Voiceocer)
“I learned that every influencer is using this strategy to stay motivated… staying active in your life will keep your mind clear and thoughts sharp”
(Visual Concept)
Me on the stair master, going through some exercise routines, than quick clips to me going home, cut to me eating some food i prepped
(Voiceocer)
“Having a routine can help you stay motivated, every successful influencer, celebrity, business owner has found a routine that promotes successful habits. “
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