5 Struggles - Insecurities: I was never a popular person in school. I was always an outcast, I was not the most athletic, never the smartest, always alone. I had a few friends here and there but no one really stuck around. My insecurities were not knowing who my dad was, not having any friends, being made fun of for being a fat kid did not help. Sports and Video games were my escapes growing up, the adrenaline in Sporting events helped me forget that I was insecure about anything, but that was only during games. Video games helped me forget about anything life related, but that was only till I had to turn the games off. Growing up I still carry most of my childhood insecurities, I am insecure about my body after being in shape a few years ago, I am insecure about my job since I don't make a lot of money, I am insecure about being interested in nerd things like Card games and Video games at 20 years old. - Mental illness: I was never diagnosed with Depression, but I have been through some nasty Depressive episodes. I have experienced a lot of mental abuse from my Step-Dad, I don't hold anything against him since he was going through a lot himself. I got over most of my childhood trauma but some things do stick with me. Most of my mental issues stem from the loss of my Uncle in 2023, he was my best friend and was taken from my family after a nasty car accident. Lastly, what has messed with my head was losing my Sister in 2023 from pediatric cancer, I never got to meet her as she is my Sister on my biological Dad’s side, I feel guilty never going to her funeral since I was 16 and thought “I never met the kid so why should I go”. I feel and carry the guilt every day but I try to live and experience life for her.  -  Obsessive and Addictive Tendencies: I have bad Obsessive and Addictive traits, I will find something and obsess over that one thing in very unhealthy ways. I mainly see myself obsessing and fantasising about being a successful Content Creator and living a free life - Motivation: I am very motivated by money, however I lose motivation just as fast as I gain it. I am still young and never felt the low of scraping for rent money but I am trying to avoid that scenario as much as I can. I have worked crazy hours in construction for a paycheck that I was not happy with, feeling a low of seeing what time I put into that paycheck with what I took home was a huge eye opener. - Leaving nothing behind:  I am struggling with the idea of leaving nothing when I die. I want to leave behind the great stories that will be told of “ Landen did amazing work for the family, Landen opened up so many businesses”. My fear is my family not being able to tell those stories.