Better things will come to us 🤍🙏♾️

And I hope this helps someone else. It blew my mind. It's another long post though, so stay with me! I think I just had one of those breakthroughs that makes years of studying manifestation, frequency, shadow work, and the subconscious suddenly rearrange themselves in your head. There are thousands of people on YouTube talking about reality shifting, manifestation, Law of Attraction, shadow work, frequency, etc. You can study the same concept for YEARS, hear essentially the same thing a hundred different ways, and then one person phrases it slightly differently and suddenly... Oh. My. God. It clicks. Yesterday, I was listening to Mitesh Khatri. He was talking about emotions as patterns—almost like habits. And the way he explained it completely changed how I understood something I thought I already understood. His point was basically that crises and emergencies don't necessarily create the emotional pattern we're experiencing. They magnify what is already there. The external event gives us something to attach the emotion to. "Whoever wants to cry will find a reason to cry." Whoever is carrying anger will eventually find something to be angry about. Whoever is carrying abandonment will experience an event and say, See? I've been abandoned. It caused me to look at the last two years of my life completely differently. My marriage collapsed. I lost my home. I got a job and then lost the job. I've experienced uncertainty, rejection, grief, instability, and this recurring feeling that I need someone or something to choose me so I can finally feel safe again. I've spent a lot of time thinking: Of course I'm grieving, I'm sad, angry, etc... Look at everything that happened to me! But now I'm asking a different question: What if these things didn't create the emotional pattern? What if they amplified an emotional pattern that was already there? 🤯 Were these events the first time I had ever experienced these emotions? No! When I looked backward, I could see it... I grew up without much emotional safety. My mother wasn't emotionally or psychologically safe for me, and although I adored my father, he worked nights and wasn't available much during the week. Somewhere very early in life, I seem to have learned something like, "Safety can disappear" or "Safety doesn't exist" or "Support isn't guaranteed" or more importantly, "I have to handle things alone."