Powerful experience and very personal. Breathwork Ceremony homework

@Aaron Doughty Huge huge thanks dear Aaron for guiding us through this so amazingly. Your guidance through this is your greatest so far. Such a gift. Bless you.

I've just done this for the first time in my life tonight. I woke at 2am and did it in the dark. As it finished the birds are now singing as the dawn begins.

Trusted you so much Aaron as the physical sensations and positions were quite scarey but I didn't feel any fear at all.

Thank you for holding us with Divine protection through this and keeping us safe.

💎Physical sensations:

Began with extreme body heat from about the 4th breath in. Really uncomfortable. Alot of tingling began all over the body, some stiffness, alot in the neck and legs. Almost paralysis. Upon invitation to make sounds Mouth fixed wide open (that was scarey, like a corpse). I was letting out alot of bad things placed upon me from my mother in law for 22 years. I was feeling it for myself, children and their father. It was paralysing. My whole body was stiff.

It felt like an exorcism. (never experienced anything like that before)

The tinglings are something I thought was an illness 3 years ago and Dr's couldnt diagnose or understand. I always thought it was my nervous system. In the ceremony it became quite scarey for me as it was more intense than I have ever felt. And all over the body. My neck and head were in a kind of paralysis and my lower legs. In feeling into these I let go of the fear around physical bodily illness and felt these were going to be released from me.

All the physical sensations remained throughout the whole first half.

💎Insights:

I know that one reason I am my children's mother is to heal them from ancestral patterns and I felt my pure energy carrying them in my body and this release now as a spiritual bond which heals them. I saw their ancestral past and their future in freedom from that.

During the strong sensations I felt my Viking ancestors, one in particular a strong male warrior. All the physical sensations were strong and I felt like he was standing inside of me in that strength. I felt his courage and passion. He remained within my legs as the other sensations eventually eased because my lower legs stayed paralysed for a long time through to the end of the first half and into the second. It felt like his legs were standing me strong. And it resonated with someone telling me this week that my energy is sooooo loving and yet like a strong tower. This warriors energy felt like I recognised him as the Divine Masculine within me and its the first time I allowed him to come. This is quite significant as my energy is highly Feminine.

It allowed me to feel I can stand strong in my calling to heal others and to break through their pain and shields.

Realising the sadness within me for having not reaching deep enough to heal others, this was also related to the very first thing that arrived in the breath work (before the physical tingling etc). Two things arrived then where I cried and let go of the lack of appreciation from my children's father for a long long time... (20years) Like never being seen and never having the permission to reach into him with all the love and healing light I have and wanted to give more. Then when all the physical sensations arrived this faded away and other realisations came.

So that's the first half.

I received an unanswered phone call come in right after the intense first half just completed, at the moment I felt I needed spiritually holding. The Divine holding through this significant other/self, who was spiritually present at that moment 🙏🏻 helped me come through that and feel a sense of relief because it was a really tough experience.

Second half....

It took me a little time for my body to relax but gradually this happened and the breathing steadily but slowly became less laboured and more natural. Then I was able to hear the music of the second song, and it was powerful and brought a sense of home and a gentle holding.

The words "I am who I am that is that, I am who I am, thank God I am..." melted me back into myself whom I experience every day since I was a child. And the 'Thank God I am" really allowed the praise to rise in my heart in that moment for gratefulness for this unique creation in me. It connected me to the Divine in a way I am familiar with each day so I was returning to myself after what felt like a long night of work, and again I felt so grateful for that familiarity and knowing of myself.

I recognised this full circle back to the lack of acknowledgement and appreciation within a 20 year marriage, and although I've been validating myself for all of that time because thankfully I'm in touch with myself and Source and confident within this, the breathwork allowed me to recognise the pain that was remaining about this from someone I loved and cared about in such a totally committed way for 20 years, and so when the song played I was back to myself again and most thankful. I also recognised and appreciated my value to everyone else who does see me and value me.

Is there something arising in us from the Divine when listening to this song whereby the Divine in us is wanting to be known and longs to be known to the people whom we have been called to be in Presence with?

And so within our pain of not being seen and particularly when there is a longing to reach but its not received, God is in the midst and Divine Presence with us.

In our sufi tradition there is a saying by The Divine

"I was a hidden treasure longing to be known " (Hadith qudsi)

The song says also

"I am who you are looking back"

This spoke to me too....

And of course "There is One God and thats a fact" .

(Ashadu La ilaha il Allah, which I recite every day) .

This song felt like it was out there right in that moment of coming out of the hard core back to the beautiful core of myself. Knowing that whatever I went through in here in the first half (and in a really shocking experience of Separation I had a few nights ago) and whatever it brings I remain, and I remain connected to The Divine Beloved whose always known and held me and from Whom I originate and move and love and have my being.

I heard through Aaron's Affirmations the voice of the people in my life who love me and see me.

And Aaron's encouragement through it all was amazing.

"Joy to the world, Peace on the earth, God bless the children, how we love them... "

Well this is my mission and it connected with my mission to my own children and to the world and a calling to really step into this more powerfully and actively with all of you.

And how beautiful this is.... A divine purpose manifesting on personal levels and in the collective. How gorgeous to come back into ourselves connecting with our souls and our purpose, and in Oneness.

And then when I thought it couldn't get any better John Lennon Imagine! Brought me tears again at the end because I felt my dad's presence as its his favourite song. He's very unwell in his 92nd year at this time. My father has taught me so much through his life about social justice, values of world peace and embodied them in his life being a true gentleman with dignity and honour about all he is, teaching me so many values of integrity and kindness, gentleness and conviction. I really felt my father and my father in me listening. I recalled all the years in childhood and beyond when I listened to this in sadness because of the state of the world. And felt John sang it with this sadness. But this listening was the first I really felt embodied by it, bringing John with us as we step out powerfully into this truth as a collective.

Let's Imagine, let's be, let's manifest a better world day by day, moment by moment.

Love you all 🌈🙏🏻💫

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Powerful experience and very personal. Breathwork Ceremony homework