¡Hola and Hello! I need to talk

I think my spiritual journey has followed me since I have not clear memory of it.

I wasn't aware ofc but I've always been the person who tries to straight up myself and be responsible, beyond it growing up I was the girl who gives and deliver advice to people.

To put everyone in context I have grown in a very dysfunctional family, I didn't have a father and a mother that was always working and very emotionally unavailable. I always have found myself in very strange life positions. Always thought I had strong wars and strong problems cus there's a purpose at the end .. a rewarding one.. sometimes have been very difficult to keep that clear in my head and aim myself towards good, not fall into evil or bad decisions I can regret.

The point is in this Journey I thought I was made to do something with a huge and real meaning, I met Aaron on Social Media like one year ago, them I met Victor, I come From El Salvador 🇸🇻 I am from Latinoamerica, Latino people tend to have this amazing impression of always having fun, and always very joyful, I never really was like that Even I am Latina, I carried a lot of things inside me... including a cronic depression , some how I found the way to flight to Ireland 🇮🇪 and live other experience get to know more about how the world works and get to know people from everywhere and somehow my level of consciousness started to grow fast and I started to heal, after so many chaotic experiences , I kept preparing myself... But being in there aboard I thought I was living a life with no purpose. I wanted to help people, but I felt very hypocrite of me trying to help people that wasn't coming from my roots, (Don't get me wrong I want to help everyone It's just I thought there's so much poverty and lack in Latinoamerica, So I thought they needed the most ) which if I am honest is a very hard work cus Latinoamerica People tend to believe work on your spiritual being or heal your soul is "witchcraft " and mostly idk the government and fear because of it, people are scare about growth. That's what I see...

But decided to grow a personal brand I am looking for ways how to introduce this to people just get them started at least. And through this struggle I ran into Aaron again and his group and their content.

And the struggle of no having anyone to talk with, the struggle of not having proper guidance and the struggle of feeling I don't belong anywhere while trying to help people.

And people do not understanding being quite scare of what I talk It's not even the get triggered by it they get scared.

I made the breathwork of these last days "Thank You so much" I appreciate it... but something happened.

I have a brother he is a very abusive and wants to control everyone around him, and after my breathwork experience saw him behaving as usual and couldn't stop myself to actually have a huge fight with him very close to hits and violent.... I think his violence triggered me, and part of me it's been represed for years, and now I wasn't able to control much of it and just realise it . But feel quite guilty and bad because of it...

I am looking for to have friends where I can be myself and I am looking for guidance, somewhere to belong, for this reason I am writing this here and Want to create connections with people in this group.

KInd Regards, Thank you , Thank You Aron for your teaching, Thank you to Victor too.

And Mat..

I have been able to be in some Matt sessions too...

AND Thank you for anyone who could be reading me right now... I really needed to say this... and if there are opinions or anything I would be happy to read.

Namaste 🙏🏻

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