Amazing call tuesday with @Lukas Kulbis GRATEFULL! This call was amazing. One thing I remembered deeply during the call — and something I was already feeling Tuesday morning — is this: Give first. Don’t wait for the moment where you get something back. Just give. There’s something beautiful that happens when you do. Love starts running through you like a wave of bliss. At the beginning of the call, I was actually cycling back home, buying bananas and meat for dinner, while listening carefully. The words were enchanting me. When I got home, I layed down and followed some guided breathwork from Lukas. The energy in the group felt incredibly coherent.I stopped trying to control or fix anything and simply let everything be. That alone felt......

I still continue with my drawing. I’ve created some quite beautiful pieces, but the one I always go back to and pray for is my Vortex 🌪️ 9. It’s my second painting, and I truly feel like it came from my higher self. While I was creating it, I didn’t even realize what I was drawing until the painting was finished. ⚜️

Long story, I had 3 major sugeries. After the first surgery, I thought I will be paralize rest of my life. I said to myself that, I did I all can. And the surge came. Within seconds, I can move. Back to normal. Before surgries, I some how got into human alchemy and more, way before the incidents. One night, the energy simply force my lung to squeez to zero. And I was linked. I jumped from kundalini and human alchemy without any instruction or knowledges. On the night of full moon. It happened. And that took me 18 years to figure out what had happen and happening. We are part of the the ENERGY. That's how I see it. I ran into Nick on Youtube, and tried the Coherence breathing, and that took me to another stage, unlock the ancient Zen technic. We are part of the universe. It's hard to belive.

I wanted to ask something to the people here who went from “doing well” to genuinely reaching another level in business/life — for example from consistent 20k months to 50k+, or from 5 to 6 figure months. Not only strategically, but internally. I’ve noticed something in myself recently and I’m trying to understand it deeper instead of just forcing my way through it. Last month I reached a trading goal I had been working toward for a long time, and then for some reason I gave back almost half of it. It felt less like a lack of skill and more like some kind of unconscious ceiling or worthiness pattern. Almost like every 2 steps forward, I take 3 back. And the strange part is: I know how much I’ve already overcome to even get here. Trading changed my life in many ways. It’s what pushed me into healing, breathwork, emotional regulation, self-awareness, learning about human behaviour, self-love, discipline, and becoming a better person to myself and to the people around me. It stopped being only about money a while ago. I also don’t really want to become a content creator or chase attention online. I genuinely love trading itself because of how deeply it mirrors psychology and identity. It exposes everything. What I’m trying to understand is: what kind of inner work, belief work, nervous system work, paradigm shifts, or identity changes did you have to go through to stop unconsciously returning to old patterns when you were close to the next level? Because I do put a lot of work into myself daily, it is 24/7. I work with a holistic therapist every few days, I do breathwork, meditation, self-observation, and I’ve become much kinder to myself than I used to be. Before, I would destroy myself mentally after mistakes. Now I can hold myself with compassion while still taking accountability. But still… I sometimes catch myself behaving in ways that don’t match the person I know I’m becoming. In trading we often say: “the market pays you exactly what you believe you’re worth.”

One idea stood out: retirement, weakness, and stillness are not opposites of strength or activity — they are part of the same cycle. In Taoist thinking, true action doesn’t always mean doing more. Sometimes it means stepping back, allowing things to unfold, and returning to a simpler state. “Heaven and earth and everything are produced from existence, but existence itself comes from nonexistence.” A reminder that not everything needs force to move forward.