Food for Faith 5/4/26: Surrender Sucks
I’m going to be really honest with you today…
Life… just feels heavy right now.
If I’m being real—what I want more than anything is to disappear for a while.
To go quiet.
To just… hibernate until things feel better.
But at the same time,I can feel God pressing on my heart…
“Let go of control.”
And I know that voice.I’ve taught that message.I’ve shared it.I believe it.
But right now?
I’m struggling to live it.
Because the truth is—I don’t like how things look right now.
This isn’t where I want to be.This isn’t how I thought things would go.This isn’t how I want to feel.
And there’s a part of met that’s still clinging tightly to how I think this should all play out.
And if I’m being even more honest…
That tension?
It’s making me feel bitter.
Broken.
Even… a little hypocritical.
Because how do you tell people to trust God—when your own mind is fighting it?
But I think this is the part we don’t talk about enough.
Surrender isn’t a one-time decision.
It’s a battle.
A daily, sometimes moment-by-moment choice between control… and trust.
And right now,I’m in that fight.
Not on a stage.
Not from a place of having it all figured out.
But right in the middle of it.
And maybe that’s the lesson.
That faith isn’t proven when everything makes sense.
It’s built when everything in you is resisting—and you choose to soften anyway.
So today…
I’m not coming to you with answers.
I’m coming to you in the process.
Learning—again—that God doesn’t need my control.
He’s asking for my surrender.
Even when I don’t like it.
Even when I don’t understand it.
Even when I’d rather run the other direction.
And maybe you’re there too.
Feeling stuck.
Resisting what is.
Holding to what you wish it looked
If that’s you…
You’re not alone.
We’re both learning this together:
Let go…so God can actually move.
Scripture:
📖 Proverbs 3:5–6
📖 Matthew 11:28
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Food for Faith 5/4/26: Surrender Sucks
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