Good morning guys!! I wanted to share something I'm doing in the chance it might help someone else 🥰 So what I've started doing is deciding what I want to get done that hour.. then setting a 20 minute timer and playing a playlist that is an hour long. Why? Because it gives my brain a 20-minute "buffer", if that makes sense. It takes ALL the pressure off. Because WORST CASE scenario, it takes my brain and body 20 minutes to warm up to even start the thing.. and I STILL have 40 minutes to complete it. So once 20 minute timer goes off, I immediately reset it. Then turn music back on. Anyway I wanted to share because I did that this morning. At first I set an hour timer but realized no..that's not quite right. Now as always, you might not have to get as nitty gritty/granular as me. But *I* do haha. If I want any sort of quality of life for myself as well (I always ALWAYS give it to daughter🥰). So all that to say, because I listen to the same playlist every morning now, my brain "recognizes" oh first song is for us (meaning me, inner child, subconscious etc😅) to start getting out of bed. Hard to explain but the bottom line is I'm both struggling AND finding ways that are changing the game for myself and all I want to do is help if possible! Bonus: the songs are basically self-affirming so it feels like I'm getting a big bang for my effort buck! And the fact is, by doing this protocol this morning, I was able to get out of bed moisturize face get stuff together to bring downstairs make it downstairs take vitamins prep water make protein oatmeal all in 20 minutes WITHOUT rushing. 🤯 while ALSO saying good morning to daughter etc.. and YES I still had intrusive thoughts but the music helped me go back to the music and dance a bit etc. The music "carried me" so to speak. Plus, every "rep" i do with the self affirming (but genuinely I like it so it doesn't feel preachy haha!) music, HAS to be helping me in some way! It is better to TRY that than to not try, right?🤔

Just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realized something wild: the freeze I keep hitting mid-sentence isn't my brain shutting down. It's my brain moving too fast for my own executive function to keep up. I've been calling myself scattered for years when I was actually overwhelmed by my own processing speed. 🤯 I make sense. 🙏🏼

My Big Rocks: To take care of my pfysical helth, sleeo and body, And to let my self be 1 priorety in my life]. I am here because I don´t want to be a bitter old lady, angry about life, becouse I newer find out to live the life my way.(the right water) This communety gives me hope, at last I don´t feel like 2 hand human, and the roadmap gives me hope that I can be friend with my self and feel that I am werthy as all people. I commit to showing up, not perfection, completing check-ins, doing the exercises, engaging with the community]. When it gets hard, I will, put a note where I always can see it: Reach out to the community, return to my Big Rocks, do my bare minimum protocol, remember why I started].

Major win today! I deleted a few thousand emails and text messages and it feels GREAT! I also unsubscribed to at least 10 newsletters. I’ve also been chipping away at the thousands of screen shots I’ve taken. The more I remove, the better I feel.

Just wrote my Commitment Letter for Week 1, and the biggest thing I discovered is that my Big Rock isn't health, or creativity, or even nature - even though all three matter deeply. It's something underneath all of that: belonging to myself first. For years I've tried to build healthy habits on top of a life where I'm on-call for everyone else, and no habit can survive that. So for the next six weeks I'm not overhauling anything. I'm building one thing: the container of time that is mine. The rest grows from there.