How much money did you spend on alcohol when you were drinking heavy? I was probably spending about $15-20 a day probably around $500 / month What did this cost me ? How many times did I apologize? How many times did I say no to certain family and friend events? Was this selfish? What about my health when I wasn’t at peek? Think about all the things you can now do? You may even make more money as a result of clearer decisions. If it controls you let it go.