Have something to look forward to. It doesn't have to be big, a favourite meal, a catch up with a friend, a walk in a place you love. Remind your nervous system that there's more to life than survival & responsibilities. Speaking of...this was not as warm as I'd hoped...so I look forward to getting the board back out later in the year 🥶 Just over 3 mile round trip on the Thames managed though.

✅ Hit my daily steps and water intake ✅ Did 4 x weight sessions ✅ Did 40 mile bike ride 💜 Had a couple of days of a wobble with mood but picked up slightly with more sleep through earlier nights ✅ Managed my macros every day but 1 when went to Filey ✅ Made wonderful memories with my boys Looking back, that's a pretty positive week 💪

You know what, Jamie said to post positives and even negative stuff. So here goes.... I feel like jelly on a plate that's getting shaken. My head this last couple of days is pretty scrambled. My cycle is due (hormones are a b**ch), and I know I feel so much level headed after. But I'll be honest, this last few days has been a struggle. I'm feeling sad from the funeral on Tuesday despite rekindling a friendship. The "phrase, sticks and stones may break my bones"; well I've usually got a thick skin, but coupled with the funeral and hormones, some words this week that have been thrown really and are really cutting deep. And I'm struggling to shift the low mood. I'm still doing my macros, my steps, my exercise. I'm distracting myself with other things and really getting stuck into the time with the kids and that makes me so happy. I even bought myself flowers. But alone time at the minute just feels that much harder. Rather than feeling good and strong in the gym, I'm feeling inadequate, I have imposter syndrome and starting to doubt myself and my confidence is rocked so I feel I've gone into my shell. And why? All because of a bit of emotion, hormones and some words... I feel silly posting this, as I'm usually able to pivot but today feels like a struggle.

Trying to get back into a routine since school holidays. +ve 7.35 miles cycle yesturday with ems. Loved our 1:1 time as mols was back at school. What an incredible view. Weight remains the same Exercising 10mins in the morning Asthma now classed as controlled so back under my local GP. No hospital visits for me (hopefully for a longtime) Booked a doctor appointment as want another allergy test completed to find out my triggers. I refuse to accept ok and not actually fully recovered. -ve Had a lazy couple of weeks Had a real wobble when discharged from the lung specialists. Have to face that this is my normality now. Daily inhalers and tablets plus not fully understanding what covid has done to my immune system. Feel like medicine is a sticking plaster not a cure. Been comparing myself with others (ie you guys) and my old self. Anyone reading to this point. NEVER DO THIS, ITS SELF DESTRUCTION MODE!!

Saw this photo 3 years ago (next week) decided change was needed Fast forward same spot very different person, mentally and physically stronger Keep doing what you’re doing it’s worth the effort in the end Love you all