I feel you! I have similar thoughts/feelings. I start to deal with it on sessions with coach and for me it’s coming from unworthiness, I felt like I’m not good enough or pretty and oh my the hate what I felt, for me it stems from my childhood when I was the last woman in my dad’s life, so as a kid I was fighting for his attention with adult women and it stays as a program in me, so now more I’m focusing on my growth and what I like or I’m good at instead of criticizing myself, more I feel better around women and actually seeing we are all on the same boat. But it took me 3 years to get to that point and be more curious than jealous. Also my husband as a first man in my life makes me feel worthy and safe when we are around other women and that helps too. And when something arise as a feeling towards others I just let it be for what is it without judging but easier said then done and that’s when forgiveness comes, it’s ok to feel that way. When I’m around spiritual/aware women I feel safe so usually I take it as an opportunity to connect and observe how I feel and speak about it. What is your way to deal with those emotions?

For me it’s continual therapy (but it must be someone who is awake and who went through emotions and works constantly on themselves) and energy healings are the cherry on top! I have to check on that Radiesthesia therapy, because what I know sacred geometry healing is not banned.

@Giovanna Barraza it’s wild that something like that can be actually banned. Seems someone didn’t like it while dangerous prescriptions of meds are all right😅.

@Kellyann Mcskeane I love that! This resonates so much with my journey! I feel that the most hard part was to recognize those patterns and now yeah it’s still painful many times but now we can understand it better and do something about it right?

@Kellyann Mcskeane you said it perfectly! I love how you think especially in the part “I’m reclaiming all my parts”! Yes, that’s the all work about and the rest will unfold on it’s own💖

@Reme Howard that american dream, house, kids, golden retriever and white fence I know what you mean. It can look like by design. I love creativity, more diverse better, I love when something has personal meaning, garden on own terms, colorful walls or having chicken as a pet. I think you deserve the rest from all this things as needing to have bf/gf or chasing some stuff you even don’t like or behave in particular way and how you said, first save yourself, give yourself permission for that. The rest will appear around you in a way mind cannot think of😎. Sometimes I feel pressure from people about when I will have kids or house before I get old, or when do you marry was typical too and all I was thinking why are you bother?😅 it’s my life and I’ll do it when I feel to.

@Reme Howard you never know which doors will open for you and you may start to do renovations as well! That’s the dream to focus on because it involves your passion instead of thinking about this “american dream”. And with the kids, haha I feel you. I’m the oldest one (33) my other sisters are 18 & 21 and I think neither one planning parenthood so good luck to my parents😅. I mean I loooove kids especially babies but I don’t know , there is still much to work on to break the cycle at least a bit and the rest is in the god’s hands

@Reme Howard that’s great you have that person. And of course your mom saying this, but that means that she speaks to herself who needs therapy. I was reading old texts from my mom, how angry she was with me and now I clearly see it was meant to her, I build new life here while she piece by piece destroying her own blaming everyone around for her life. Our parents are our biggest teachers right? Getting on our nerves😅.

@Reme Howard I feel you, it’s hard! And you deserve to be seen and heard by your parents! I wish they could knew better. What a dark time they must lived through not like those days right? I’m very grateful to born to the era where you can actually choose what to do or to move anywhere in the world and how internet connected people around the globe. But to have this convenient stuff now we have to feel what our parents or grandparents couldn’t. So I wish you best with your mom and eventually find the way❤️.