lowk I’m scared, like really scared, ive even had nightmares about being a "bum" so vivid they woke me up all sweaty and shii. The hardest part is that everyone I know, including my parents seems convinced I’m "fucked" and that it’s over for me, i don’t know if they see something in myself that I can’t see, or if they’re just projecting their own fears, but hearing them say I’m totally fucked and i just dont realized it has worn me down, they really focus on the part that i dont realize how fucked the situation im in. im sick of people telling me how to "fix" my life when I never asked for their advice, maybe cuz i oveshared and like, told them everything about my life, the good the bad, my issues my problems all that stuff, which i blame myself for it cuz i was so dumb. It feels like they think they know better than me, and they’ve decided my future before I’ve even lived it. The constant daily negativity has finally broken through. I’m starting to believe them, my mentality is messed up, I feel uncomfortable in my own skin, and I’m constantly wondering if they’re right because it’s literally breaking me.

SPOILERS FOR "WHIPLASH", IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED IT GO WATCH IT IT'S A REALLY GOOD MOVIE. In the movie "Whiplash", Andrew Niemann wants to become a legendary drummer. Not just a really good drummer, but one that will go down in history as the best of the best. He wants to become the greatest drummer of all time. To do so, he lets himself basically get consumed by the craft. He obsesses over it, pushing himself to serious mental and physical distress, dedicating his entire body and soul to drumming. He lets every other part of his life just atrophy: he cuts of his girlfriend, he cuts off his family, he cuts off even himself and his well-being! The only thing he left in his life and in his identity was drumming. However, despite how unhealthy that may have sounded, it worked. Really well I may add, it worked so well. In the climax of the movie, Niemann preforms an objectively stunning solo, impressing even his mentor and world-class judges. There's the question: Do you think this type of obsession is the best way to achieve success? Is dedicating your entire being, forfeiting and giving up each and every aspect of you in favor of your goal, the way to truly excel at your craft?

Do y'll believe in God? The concept of God is confusing when multiple God already exist, it is almost as if "God" is a figure created for morale and allat emotional support. But in terms of my pov, I find it quite ez to conclude my faith in religion as I do face or see the imperfections of my mind and the brutal reality of the world if I keep on doing the mentioned "sins". I may not be able to prove God exists in this new generation of science, but I gotta say, Buddhism is healing me in a good way. Anyways, what do yll think about ts? Enlighten me with yo opinions frfr

What is "life"? to you guys ?

Intellectual thinkers have this idea that because of the “nuanced ideas” of human society that they are better of than the herd. While these ideas are great and all these intellectuals never try to experience what the average human does how they live their life form connections and experience love. The more you think of it it’s really crazy that you’re taking advice from someone who believed that people are to stupid enough for them to interact with and that they are better off alone.