Explained with Chinese metaphysics. https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUlXRbTkc6t/?igsh=amtkZWM1MmphM21s

I found out my nursing school is closing and although there are options (not set in stone fully yet) I feel like it’s triggered my teen into thinking my world is uncertain and I am unsafe and everything is crumbling…. The reason is based on funding and a lot of it has to do with the current administration and basically there’s going to be alot of this happening national wide which ties into my fear response…I felt very good and felt secure and like I was in a good place….Now the uncertainty is removing my newfound safety blanket and I’m spiraling with the possibilities and also feeling this deep gut feeling that my life trajectory is about to change and I don’t want it to… Finding it hard to keep my FA online and talk to my activated littles knowing this is more about the state of the world and how it’s affecting everyone(me) so deeply 😭😭😭😭

My 11 year old got her FIRST ever failing mark in school on a major assessment today. She told me right away and my FA stayed online the whole time. I usually would have spiraled and both of us would have had a hard go while my teenager would be thinking about how it was the end of the world. This time I was honestly just relieved she was able to tell me and I could tell that she wasn’t so anxious or fearful of my reaction just happy to feel “safe” being honest and WOW real tears right now realizing as I’m writing what a pivotal moment it is for my child to feel safe enough to bring me a failing grade. That I could model that it is NORMAL and ok to fail sometimes and there’s a lesson in it. For her “slow down”. She cried because she’s a strait A student and everything comes with ease for her and I comforted her and honestly all my littles stayed calm while doing it. The point of this post is to share my absolute pride knowing that the work I’m doing is so real and I’m seeing it unfold in front of me. My daughter knows that her worth isn’t contingent on how she performs and that nothing she does can make me love her more or less. ✨😊🥰

I’m so exhausted this evening I will see everyone next week 💕✨

Requesting coaching around the complicated living situation with my mom. For context, my mom lives with us currently (white woman, boomer, very enmeshed). We have been working toward separating for quite some time now with a deadline placed in the Fall/Winter of this year. There have been many attempts to get her to do the work with little success, making continuing to cohabitate a huge strain. She's just shared that she's been fired from her job. Without getting into all the details, this makes it highly unlikely she will be able to support herself without help due to her disabilities and declining health. I'm struggling to stay with the plan. My stomach feels like it's dropping through the floor. My teen and tween are terrified of being trapped with her forever. But my wounded child is heartbroken at the idea of her being potentially homeless. The guilt around not wanting to caretake her is intense. My FA is keeping the boundary firm, not allowing my emotional turmoil to land on her and also not stepping in to soothe her anxiety either. But I'm struggling to figure out how to handle this without either caving to the pressure to rescue/solve it for her, or being callous.