Apologizes by saying sorry... keeps repeating the behavior without changing the pattern... Repentance: I ask for forgiveness when I hurt you, I will work on my reactions and how I treat you in the future... I ask God for forgiveness too and I will do whatever it takes to mend the brokenness in our relationship.... Then it's followed with a complete turn around. I seriously can't handle anymore relationships with fake apologies. If you actually care, you will change... The end.

On Monday, I had prayed for God to show me things He wanted me to see, that I did not even know about and could not even imagine to ask. We have a family rule of no tv except on movie night. Tuesday, I heard the tv playing and walked down the hall. When the kids heard me walking down the hall they shut the tv off. I have an agreement to share snacks we have saved for when we climb mountains with the kids if they ask. One child walked into our room and just took one which surprised me. I then spoke something from my surprise which I learned was not from me as I said, “Don’t take them out of the room.” I know I don’t care if they are taken out of our room. This gave me insight that it was from my partnership with a demon tweaking a trauma inside me and giving me something to say in agreement to it, since I do not speak things I do not want to do on my own. That child immediately started reacting in a violent destructive way saying “I was not going to take them out of the room.” This showed me that it was a plan between two demons who know us well. They knew if they told me to say don’t remove it, that my child would be triggered. I was then speaking to another child. When done with that other child, then I first said an instant reaction to the upset child to calm down, which of course did not work. I then received divine insight to humble myself and said, “I am so sorry, I felt surprised when food was taken without asking. Will you please forgive me for letting a demon speak through me after I got surprised?” The child immediately stopped being violent. It was like the air had been taken out of a sailboat’s sails. Proverbs says a quiet answer turns away wrath. I can also joyfully say, a humble action also turns away wrath. I felt like Moses who threw himself down on the ground in submission to the Lord. This just worked in de-escalating my child who got triggered by my instant words. She still had to be given time to get out of her emotion and was not fully out of at least sensitivity for around 1-2 minutes. I am so excited to break these demonic patterns. When I humbled myself, I was then calm and relaxed. I hope this helps others in angry situations to reduce violence. Always speak about what you feel with true humility. Nothing about them at all to initially reach them with connection. My goal is connecting with my kids, but I will always obey Jesus’ direction beyond my understanding as He has never steered me wrong. I also have had discussions with my family that we do not wrestle against flesh and blood. It is us humans against the cruel, diabolical and full of hate defeated demons. Demons get harshness from me and my family. I am regularly praying to be kind and gentle with my kids.

When convenience is king in family (whether it’s emotions, food, discipline of children, etc) health is an afterthought. True health isn’t convenient. It’s not comfortable. There may never be a convenient or comfortable time to start working on it. “I’ll start working on this once we are out of this season” is the mantra of one ruled by convenience. Every season has its excuses. It’s too hot, it’s too cold, it’s too windy, it’s too rainy, it’s too humid. All these are similar to: we are moving soon, we just moved, we are in sports, I don’t have the time right now, our finances need to change then we can. Embracing inconvenience and discomfort is what breaks the cycle and makes health the priority it deserves to be. After all, health makes every season not only more bearable, but gives us the ability to thrive through every one of them. And in reality, the families I’ve seen get the most breakthrough were the ones who started the work at the most inconvenient times.

The more “money” in the account, the easier the withdrawals feel. The less “money” in the account, the harder they feel. You want to have about 20 deposits for every 1 withdrawal. You also want to learn what you do for your family that feels like a $5 deposit or a $20 deposit.