Familiarity is such a safe place to be, but it can also be hindering. This past week, I've had to really truly know what it means to let go and make space. My anecdote starts here: Overcoming my addiction and really truly finding the authentic part of myself is what brought me to working in the transformation coaching space as I've had to do the work myself and I continue to today. This said and having also going through this journey alongside a close friend (who's pertinent to this story), I've had to let go not just of the drug itself, but the mindsets and habits that went with them. I took drugs out as being something that HAD to be a part of my day in some way, shape, or form to get anything done. I absolved my connections with those friends that could get their hands on said products for me until I could actually talk with them without triggerization. I had to forgive behaviors of either deceit or betrayal either from me unto others or from what others have done to me. So when said friend purposely goes back and uses with intention, but then wants me to pick up their emotional pieces yet chastises me and brings up my past mistakes as main points while I try to be as emotionally supportive as I can... It's like I'm being asked to disregard a self-made boundary... and that's been a hard-formed 'NO' over the course of my own healing journey. What makes this so terribly worse is that this friend was also on a self-healing journey alongside with me and we both used each other as accountability buddy's to get over our previous hurts and traumas. I understand that relapses will happen and I completely make space for that, but I cannot make space for my persona (as a therapist and/or life coach) being chastised because I'm not a good enough friend in his sense of being vulnerably high. Needless to say, this is rather heartbreaking for me. So much so that it has disrupted my head and heart space for me to work as diligently as I would like to. Even with the anger I have with me of knowing that he knows better but chooses not to and wanting to bring me back into old behavioral patterns, I'm also saddened with disappointment whilst my empathy level is off-charting. This has bothered me for several days and there hasn't been any communication on their end in the forms of any acknowledgement or apology even after giving time and checking in...and again, it's bothered me to a point to where I can't get my work done the way I'd like to.

Ever notice how the more you try to stop a negative thought… the louder it gets? There’s a really great saying in the Tantric tradition that I’ve heard Christopher Wallis share: thoughts are not truths, they’re just tools. And yet, we tend to take them very seriously. We believe them, fight them, or try to get rid of them altogether, and that’s often what pulls us out of our power. A lot of people say, “Why would I invite a thought that tells me I’m not good enough into conversation with other parts of me? I want it gone.” But has trying to get rid of it ever worked? For most people, it hasn’t. What I’ve found is that a shift happens when you stop pushing those thoughts away and instead bring them in. You allow them into the home of your body, into the throne of your heart. You let them have a voice, and then you let them pass. Because the more you fight a voice, the more power you give it. And the more you ignore it, the more it becomes a shadow part of you. But when you acknowledge it when you say, “You’re welcome here,” it stops running the show. It becomes just one part of you, rather than the authority. We all have different voices inside of us. Some are supportive and expansive, telling us we’re capable and aligned. Others are critical and limiting, telling us we’re not enough or that we’ll fail. In somatic integration experiences, we don’t eliminate these voices; we change our relationship to them. When you stop going to war with yourself, your whole system shifts. You feel more grounded, more connected, and more in your power. Over time, the critical voices lose their intensity because they no longer hold the same authority. Even the harshest voice you have likely developed for a reason. At some point, it was trying to protect you, help you belong, or keep you safe in an environment where that mattered. When you begin to see it this way, there’s less need to fight it and more space to meet it with understanding. This is how you start to reclaim your wholeness. Not by becoming only the “positive” parts of yourself, but by making space for all of you and choosing, again and again, to come back to your power.

At some point, I realized I was quietly exchanging my life for a schedule. Time in. Money out. Repeat. And it started to feel like I was always “available,” but never actually free. That’s when it clicked: I didn’t want a life where my time was the cost of everything I wanted. I wanted a life where time was something I could actually use—not constantly spend. So I started changing how I worked, not just how much I worked. Because the goal was never just more income. It was more control over my own days. 💬: If your time wasn’t tied to income, what would you change first in your life?

Look at yourself in the mirror and with the deepest intention, look yourself in the eyes say to yourself: "You are worthy of infinite abundance! You are a beacon of confidence, success, happiness, health, wealth, cosmic goodness, and hope! You are deserving of all you desire and it is flowing to you! Don't let anyone steal your light! Not your kin. Not your comrades. Not your adversaries. Let NO ONE dim your light!" I say this to myself daily as it something I have engrained deep into my bones that I have ultimately instilled in my persona. When I first recovered from my addiction, this mantra gave me hope at a time that I felt like giving up. This mantra helped me get through the times I didn't believe in myself and I had to go against those who didn't believe that I would overcome addiction as well as those that didn't believe I would rise from my addiction a different person who truly... TRULY... valued himself and the world around him. I share this with those who are struggling with finding the courage within themselves to be themselves. It's a struggle I still encounter daily, but as the days continue, it gets easier to overcome the struggle and get through it. As the street therapist that I am, I tell people what I've come to know is the truth of getting through the tough times: YOU HAVE TO GET THROUGH THE TOUGH TIMES TO GET TO THE OTHER SIDE. There truly is no way around it, but once you get through the hard times, you upcome a better a person than you prior were. HOWEVER, that doesn't mean that you have to navigate the streets of your life so harshly. As you go through your day today, meet yourself gently as you go through your struggles. They are already hard enough and The Universe will never give you anymore than you can't stand. I mean...you are a part of the Universe nonetheless. 🙏🙏🙏 Whatever the transitions you are undergoing, make the best of them and know that you are supported as you go through the harder and tougher times. Always the best of love, light, and peace to you as you drive life! 💚💚💚

My energy is thru my body and emotions like, breaking down crying, hot feet/body etc. when getting confirmations, Is one example of how my energy works. I cant seem to visalize or assend. I recall Dr Simon in one of his first classes for a course I'm in, saying his energy is also not visal, but his sisters is and she tells him some visal of his energy.Are there just some of us that are not meant to be able to visalize and/or assend Any! and all Guidance is and will help me?in my?journy , Appreciated anything helpful my Tribe! xo