Life has honestly kicking my butt for the last couple of years and I’m working on being okay. In July my hubby got sick and we spent most of July in the hospital. There was a moment in his hallucinations that he was speaking to the lady in the corner of room. His vitals dropped after he told me about the woman in the corner. The room was swarmed by doctors and nurses and he was stabilized. It was the first time I ever thought of what my life would be without him. Later, while still in the hospital he told me he had a dream that his Grandma Skarda came to him in his dreams. He told me Grandma told him that it wasn’t his time yet. He’s home now and doing a bit better thank God. He started walking without a walker a few weeks ago. During his at home recovery I received a phone call his step sister that his mom was sick and we might want to head that way. The family is very estranged and the steps are causing all sorts of problems. Tom’s mom was the queen bee of narcissists and threw people away like you’d throw away leftovers after a few weeks. She died when Tom and my 6 year old grandson were with her. I thank God for that. When I got to the room Tom was just sitting in a chair repeatedly saying “I never really knew my mom.” It broke my heart to her him say that. Her birthday was a few days ago and Tom’s was yesterday. I feel guilty bc I was excited that I didn’t have to dread the phone ringing anymore. That I am actually relieved that she has passed. I’m learning more and more that you can really love someone from a distance. That realization has been gut wrenching for me bc my family is so close. Am I a bad person for not really mourning Tom’s mom?

Feel grateful to be RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW!

Life, the universe, the Divine, God has a unique way of reminding us that we’re not alone on our journey and sometimes no matter how bad we think our lives are there are people out there they’re going through similar or worse situations. This morning I ran into a friend of mine that I worked with a VA who retired a few years ago just like I did. He had his own battle with cancer and is now a cancer survivor. I would see him walking the neighborhood with his wife on a fairly regular basis over the last couple years. I saw him this morning and stopped just to say hi and catch up with him and he told me that his wife died in January from pancreatic cancer. She was diagnosed in mid 2025 and five months later she died. She had been to three different doctors who missed the diagnosis. Finally, she went to a cardiologist who did some more extensive testing and made the diagnosis. I expressed my deepest condolences and sympathies for his loss. He said that he has been in grief counseling since she died. I told him that I thought that was a very good thing. I told him that people can be very sympathetic, but unless they’ve gone through the loss of a close love one they truly don’t understand what a person is going through. My thoughts and prayers are with him and his family. I know that God is great and will watch over them and guide them through this journey of grief and rebuilding their lives without their loved one. This is a reminder for us all to cherish every moment, especially the ones we have with our friends and loved ones. After I drove away I found a place to park and I had a good cry

Good evening. Does anyone have the Guilt, Shame, Blame, Helplessness, Self Forgiveness Chart. I cannot get into Opus Peace. Tried resetting the my password but they won't sent me the link. If you have the chart, can you scan and send it to [email protected]. Thank you!

Interesting article on writing thank you notes, gratitude and our brains :) https://siliconcanals.com/s-t-psychology-says-people-who-still-handwrite-thank-you-notes-instead-of-texting-dont-just-have-good-manners-they-process-gratitude-at-a-neurological-depth-that-changes-how-they-experience-relationsh/