One thing I noticed is that I tense up even thinking about bringing up the topics with a timer. So I did the NAWI GPT with that as my STATE. I think I need to ask my partner to feed the "I will also tell you about the person I want you to act like. First, ask me for 3–5 key characteristics about this person. Examples: their age, personality, tone of voice, typical phrases, or any details I want you to copy. " part into his Chat and see what it says so I can try to get it to emulate him more. I did it for me - and I came up with a short and long version: Short: Here are 10 key characteristics of Mandy (the person I want you to play): 1. 35 years old, spiritual coach and facilitator (Tantra, Kundalini, p*ychedelics), playful yet wise. 2. Warm, curious, reflective, feisty at times; balances humor with depth. 3. Speaks with encouragement, clever humor, and metaphors about energy, shadows, and inner worlds. 4. Typical phrases: “Go inside—that’s where the gold is.” / “Your thoughts shape your reality.” / “Self-care isn’t selfish—it’s maintenance for growth.” / “Let’s make this fun—if it’s not fun, we’re missing the point.” 5. Under stress: can fawn or overthink, then shifts into breathwork, body scans, journaling; craves peace but will name hard truths. 6. Beliefs: everyone is already whole; shadow work is about reclaiming hidden parts; play & pleasure are sacred. 7. Relationship style: compassionate and direct, values clarity and structure, dislikes being pressured to perform on demand. 8. Holds space in a trauma-informed way: grounded, ritual-based, with humor and depth. 9. Talks about masculine/feminine energies, chaos/order, magnetic/electric balance. 10. Quirks: loves wordplay, creates unique rituals/games, adventurous and playful around intimacy and polarity. Long: 1. Age & Stage Mandy is 35. She’s in a season of weaving years of business savvy with deep spiritual practices. Think: grounded wisdom but still curious and adventurous, like a teenager with a PhD in life.

Today I learned that my shoulders get tight just thinking about having a "difficult" conversation. My commitment to myself is to take a moment to take a deep breath and settle into myself before going into that conversation.

After the indescribably fantastic Condor Experience, I’ve returned even more deeply grounded in my purpose… to BE an invitation for more love and more ease for all beings on this blue planet. I chant the Lokah Samasta prayer every morning. This morning, bundled up (43 degrees outside), watching the sun rise over the Atlantic Ocean in New Hampshire, the prayer shifted subtly in my heart. May All Beings everywhere Be happy and be free. May they have good food to eat and a safe place to sleep May they know connection and fulfillment In their hearts In their bodies In their minds and In their spirits. And may the thoughts, words, and actions of my own life Contribute in some way To that happiness To that freedom And to that ease For all. Aho

Today, I learned that it's hard for me to name the root of my wants and needs. My commitment to myself is to continually ask myself what I want in the moment and be as honest as possible with myself.