Question about being judgmental
This is similar to what someone said about being happy and then almost looking for negative things. Almost like the brain just can't be happy for too long. I tend to do this with people close to me in my life. For example, my sister in law did something back around Christmas that really angered me. I never said anything but I definitely felt resentful towards her and my brother in law. Then they got married in July and there was stuff that happened with the wedding that annoyed me. She acts completely normal and nice which tells me she didn't pick up on my tone in my texts or my distance from her. Now every time she posts or I'm around her I'm just so annoyed. I hate to admit it but maybe I'm a little jealous. She's in her 30s thriving in her career and freedom which that was me in my 30s and now life is a lot different. I'm happy to be a mom and have this beautiful life but I miss those parts of me. However I'm still secretly judging her even tho that was very much me. I sometimes think she's selfish and self centered but Idk maybe that's how I was perceived before kids. Anyways my point is I tend to zero in on people close to me but then something shifts and I'm fine with the person that was driving me nuts, then I find a new person 😂😂😂 I don't like that I feel this way and I'm putting out negative energy to them and myself. What is your take on this and what is going on with me lately? Lolll