I started letting things slide . Because I thought oh it’s fine I can just carry on the way I am and I’ll manage to stay clean. Big mistake , I realise now recovery takes continuous work , and just because I got a mere 3 and a half weeks in , doesn’t mean I’ve cracked it: I new my thinking was getting bad because I started to negotiate . But temptation and romanticising the high got the better of me when actually there was more I could do to prevent a relapse , I just got complacent .