Hello Marjan, What a beautiful name you have, it sounds so soft... ❤️ I hope that you feel a little bit better by now, maybe notice the autumn colours around you and can feel the beauty of nature. However, I well remember that time durimy heavy burnout 5 years ago when my eyes saw nature's beauty, my mind thought: oh, that is beautiful but my inside felt... numb. It was the worst time of my life. And I agree with Anna. The source of our struggles, especially with regard to self love, usually goes back to our childhood and early teenage years. I had to work my way through that with the help of good therapists who really saw me and my pain. It is so true what Justin said: unconsciously, we always try to push our pain away but by doing so, we make it dense and hard and thus it eventually can cause damage in our body as you experience these days. Those feelings of your younger self are still inside you and want to be aknowledged and felt without judgement. It would be good to do what I am telling you know with a person you trust. It is a method from the Ridhwan school thst combines buddhist wisdom and modern Western psychology. For me, it is the key to healing. Give yourself a time frame: maybe 20 minutes. Sit opposite to your friend. Tell your friend about an incident in your childhood that was hurting you. By doing so, try to really dive into that situation from the perspective of little Marjan. No judging voices of adult Marjan saying: but that was not so bad... because for young Marjan, it was bad. Then, when you manage to be in that situation again, focus on your body. How does it feel? Maybe there is a knot in your stomach? Pressure on your chest or a suffocating feeling in your throat? When tears come, let them come. Cry them. What emotions are there. Anger? Sadness? Let it be. Stop nurturing it with your mind but focus on the pure emotions in your body now. Breathe into it accepting the feeling, the knot in the stomach... give it room. It is allowed to be there. It is part of you. It needs to be felt. You can even say those words: i

Thank you Justin. I feel lucky to be here.

Hello everyone and thank you for adding me here. I am from Germany but travelling a lot. These past years have all been for awareness and staying soft to feel it all, for me. I am excited to be here.