I don't have any of those stuff Aaron was talking about. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs...I avoid people that drain me as much is I can.

Hi tribe! I did the somatic release breath work yesterday, and it was my second time doing something like this. The first time was at a live event with Viktor guiding it. I think I was a bit too in my head at that time so my release was perfect for that time. Yesterday though!!!! I have been on the healing journey for 3 years now, I've done a lot of different kinds and modalities of healing. This was perhaps one of the most powerful one for me. I completely let go and surrendered to the process. It lowkey felt like an exorcism idk if I'm the only one 🤣 !!! My body was doing weird movements, at certain points my hands would clench, sometimes my legs... at some points my body felt like it was levitating, and then that I was throwing up - but not physically, just the sensation of throwing up. I bawled my eyes out... screamed like a child... had stuff come up that I didn't even know existed. My biggest insight: I had been carrying guilt all my life... for being alive. I had been feeling guilty that my sister died and I didn't. And that I was holding myself back in life, from creating a bigger impact, from shining my light, without even realising it. But it was because I felt guilty and that I didn't deserve to get noticed. About two months ago I started YT, got 400+ subs in a month and suddenly felt my energy drop and focus turn elsewhere. Gained 800+ new followers on insta, had my DMs flooded with clients, and suddenly I just withdrew from it. Albeit it was to write my second book, but yesterday I realized that It was a hidden self-sabotage because I had been carrying this inner survivor guilt or something. I kept screaming "it wasn't my choice! I didn't choose this! It was God's will" ... felt pretty intense to release that... The second huge insight was that I had been feeling guilt for my mom's unhappiness.. she's not even unhappy.. but I have always projected it because I felt that I would be, in her place. and that in my childhood I normalised this unhappiness.. as if a woman is supposed to be silenced, not seen, not heard, not validated, belittled, etc. Released that! Was massive.

I did my first meditation session today. I still feel anger and resentment toward my soon to be ex husband and his mother. It's a long story. Does it take time for it to work? Could I be doing something wrong?

#mysacredspace

No matter where I'm at in the world, my favorite spot to ground is always the beach, especially when the sun is out. It's like my thoughts just don't matter anymore and I get into this flow zen state. I'm at my local home beach right now in Ostend, Belgium. Together with my dog Hailey, who's also at her happiest on the beach.