So excited to be writing my new book! That’s a huge win for me!

To be honest...lately I've been feeling extremely overwhelmed, stressed out and alone.. I have a girlfriend of 1 year and a few months now.. at the beginning we were really strong, did a lot of dates and hanging out but after we both graduated from high school... we rarely see eachother in person like how we used to on a daily basis... to be fair, i knew it would happen and i knew what to do... but after graduating.. we both were home all the time so we used to be on the whole basically whole day. A few months later, I got into a diploma program with business and law... me and my girlfriend still went on calls and i made time for u and vice versa... if anything, we at least saw eachother once a month in person... She used to complain about how she's fed up being at home and i always tried to take her out but i used to worry about money.. (still do) and i recently got my license and I'm in the process of getting a vehicle to drive because i dislike that I got to travel in the bus with her to take her on dates... it feels.. like I'm not rolling on my own timing. So i used to tell her that when i get something to drive, we'll go out more. Months pass and nothing really happened.. i still tried with her but things happened... Fast forward now... we've been soo close to breaking up because she thinks that I'm not trying to better myself but I'm really trying, it's just soo much that i got to deal with and lately because of other stuff.. we've been distant and i try my best not to crash out on her but there's just soo much pressure... yes i understand that she have a lot more to deal with in a way than me but honestly, I'm the type of guy that if u start acting differently than before, I'm going to start questioning every single thing about me... I know that right now she thinks that I'm going to just talk things and not do it and to be honest, I been guilty of it to some extent... some things don't bare fruits instantly and right now she's losing romance towards me and us and it's really depressing to think about to be honest.... but right now I'm working on improving myself, trying to regain the part of me that i lost because to be honest, this relationship lately made me lose some stuff in myself. Last week, I was all caught up on pleasing her but it hasn't been working out for me too good.. It's only this week i really realized that I'm losing myself to try and make someone else happy and I'm just over that right now... I'm not gonna lie though, in the time of writing this, i feel soo abandon and depressed.. I just want to hear some advice from you guys and thoughts because i reallly want to make this relationship work, she means too much to me to just give up on it like this.. 😞💔

I’m a YouTuber and content creator with one simple goal — to build a healthy, judgment-free space for like-minded people who want to build confidence, improve their lives, and make genuine connections. I started this community because, growing up, no one ever taught us how to make new friends or handle social situations. We were just thrown into them... That’s like performing on stage before you’ve ever learned how to play an instrument. From a young age, I dreamed of being a public figure and inspiring others so... Over eight years ago, while still in school, I started my first YouTube channel. I posted videos showing my face online and instantly became a joke. People laughed, occasionally made fun of me and shared my videos in class for everyone to see... But I didn’t stop. Week after week, I kept posting — no matter what people said, no matter how many laughed. Eventually, my channel grew to 10,000 subscribers. And suddenly, those same people stopped laughing.. Ironic right? Haha! By 19, though, I went through a tough breakup that left my mental and physical health — and my confidence — at an all-time low... All that progress felt like it had disappeared overnight. I stopped creating. I doubted myself. I even started believing that posting videos was “cringe.” So, I stepped away and got a job in social media as a Multimedia Journalist. I interviewed people in real life, presented for huge UK brands, and created videos for the country’s biggest news publisher, Reach PLC. I loved that job. But behind all that external confidence… I was still quite lonely. I had no real support. No one to look up to. No one keeping me accountable. When I searched for advice online, all I found was toxic, ego-driven content — and that’s not who I wanted to be. I wanted to become a good man — someone with a pure heart, who trains hard, inspires others, and makes people’s lives better. and I tried everything to fill that void... Going out drinking every weekend. “Going ghost.”