I couldn't join live for the last few days of the challenge as I was volunteering on the Thursday and Friday and it was my birthday on Monday so I was eating cake with family 😊 I've just done the day 5 deep questions and I'm on the right path.

I'm reviewing my ADHD Awakening Assessment and noted that my "executive function problem" might actually be a precision-paralysis pattern... I don't start because I'm not confident that I've figured out the perfect plan yet. I've often deemed this as "paralyzed by perfectionism." The systems I keep abandoning aren't failing because I lack discipline. They're failing because they're solving the wrong problem entirely. That's annoying. ;-)

The belief that's been holding me back most: "I can't do anything right; I shouldn't even try." Where it came from: Being criticized in childhood I think. My new code: Unsure... maybe that trying is the most right thing I can do. My Future Self statement: "I am the kind of person who tries my best, and gives myself credit for completing things." This was difficult and I didn't notice any change in the way I was feeling when I imagined myself being the person who closed the loop. I think this is because I don't give myself any credit for it; there are a million more loops that I have to close so I'm immediately on to the next one.

Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me that my overachieving isn't really about ambition. It traced back to being a kid who only felt fully seen during one-on-one time with my nan, away from the competition with my sisters (all in my head). I'm still chasing that feeling through grades, work, and accomplishments I won't even let myself rest from.

We know us ADHDers have a higher propensity toward addiction. I have suffered from this in so many ways, feels like almost everything with the exception of drugs and alcohol (for some reason) Love, sex, food, sugar, relationships, social media, online gaming, gambling, travel, moving, isolation, study, sport, eating one thing only till i get sick of it then dont eat it for years!! 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Anyone else....?