Hey, This is more of a "casual" kind of inquiry, anyone feel free to hop in, I just thought I'd share a real experiential consideration I'm beggining to actually contemplate called integrity. As an experience, what does that look like? Maybe it's easier to look at what NOT integrity is, and use that as a model to better help understand what alternative is, and if it's happening within us. I'd wager, from my own personal perspective, integrity can be described as one part not fighting against another. No disintegration. To become whole. No "split" in consciousness between one aspect and another. But the big thing is, what are REALLY the consequences, of having versus not having integrity? I'd say first off, obviously, is a certain kind of lack of self honesty that can go on. You literally have the one aspect, what your most genuine sense or observation of what is actually going on or true about anything, and if we have a SPLIT in our integrity, then you start to turn away" from that, as if. You literally have a split between "what is true," in your most honest perspective, and "whatever you're trying to do." Your "perceptions" or activities are not aligned with your Most honest perceptions or awareness, as goofy as that sounds. Then obviously, in your life, you lose an ability to be in touch with what you want or what you're trying to do. You know, the whole "I don't know what I want to do with my life" or "lacking motivation" thing. You have on the one hand this idea of something you want to attain, but then on the other you wanna sit on your ass. A spit. There's this misalignment that can come along, a "confused awareness" when a being is less "whole," if that makes sense. If you really want that, why aren't you working for it? Maybe you WANT to sit on your ass but don't admit that to yourself. Or maybe there's a more complex thing happening you need to be more honest with yourself enough to find out. And the big thing, I swear to God, is that this shit is really not moral. Seems more like a "fact" or principle. No a "system," just seems like when things are out of whack or "misaligned," shit is bound to happen.

I was looking at what true listening entails. It seems to me that the more I pay attention, the more evident it becomes that I'm not particularly good at it - not so much in the conventional sense, but in a deeper way. Imagine someone is communicating a profound insight to you - whether it relates to consciousness work, transformation, or something else entirely. What do you do with it? Do you immediately accept it, reject it, believe it, disbelieve it? Do you hear the words, filter them through your mind, recall past references to what's being said, and then conclude that the communication is now understood? Perhaps the first sign of poor listening is this very impulse or predisposition to claim that you've already understood the communication. This seems to be common. We don't realize that we may have failed to listen, that we haven't experienced the insight being shared (or at least not as profoundly as we could have). So how can we better "listen," especially in this context? What even is that about?

This one day event was very useful. At 68 years of age, I'm not going to quit my job and leave my wife for 8 months to be an apprentice. I am fascinated by the idea of that level of immersion but I won't do it. That's why this one day dive into "4 principles" was so welcome. I felt I got a glimpse of what the apprenticeship program is about (which may or may not be true). I had several insights regarding my dishonesty with myself, how un-aligned with my goals I have been and most importantly, my practice of dropping out when achieving a goal gets difficult. It became clear to me for the first time HOW I get in my way. Kudos to Corentin (I hope I spelled the name correctly) who led the workshop. I'm impressed and grateful. The work with Cheng Hsin has changed how I live and operate in the world.

The zoom CI was well done. I did not stop medication‘s, alcohol or caffeine as with the on location CI’s, but it was productive. I had no breakthrough enlightenment but got insight regarding NOW, not waiting for an imagined future. I mentioned to Peter yesterday my frustration while being happy with my life in general and his “then don’t worry about it,” left me smiling. “It’s available now, don’t be a whiny bitch” was so right on and continues to help me align with what’s true versus fantasy future hoping bullshit. The books continue to provide increasing insight. The work is life changing, not “better,” just aligned with what’s true, more effective. I would do another zoom CI though I might prepare more aggressively, stopping caffeine, meditation and alcohol. Thanks for your work and dedication Brendan.

It occurrs to me that with all the shit going on in the world, especially with the US leadership, that kind of thing, that Brendon and Victor and the other guy, I apologize for not remembering his name, are doing this work to better the world as a functional expansion of Cheng Hsin principles. Apprenticeship for the masses? I want to support that!