So I noticed something different about my sleep almost immediately after starting this group. I'm not necessarily sleeping more hours. However, I started dreaming again. It's been over a decade since I dreamt anything more than a rare nightmare. Now I often have multiple dreams that I can recall most nights. That tells me there's a change in quality of sleep. I'm on the right track!

What's the zoom meeting number and password for the meeting this evening?

Yes, I am desperately chasing results, though a part of me has also given up. I'm not sure that I can learn to accept where I am and accept that I am "okay" and "enough" the way I am currently. Though I have done tons of emotional work, I still struggle with being a human "doing", my "value" lies in what I do or produce. Right now, all I am doing is surviving. So yes, I am willing to move forward with intention and try to learn to be at peace with where I am. It will be a journey.