I allow myself to feel that we are collectively connected and I am grateful for our encounter and my efforts to break out of these limitations. "efforts" fits perfectly here. I'm just starting to feel inner harmony, authenticity and joy. I was constantly putting something in the way of this and it was the part of me that was anticipating future events and fearful of experiencing myself. Virtually everything I did was dictated by the illusion of separation and inadequacy, so it couldn't work. To complement the practice of Ho'oponopono meditation, breathing meditation and I created my own rituals. Of course, the resistance I was generating was causing me, and I felt there was a reason for it, not only the identity I had built and maintained around it, but there was a part of it that was observing the whole effort with compassion for my experience. You know what I mean? Of course, the ego-related level of consciousness that lifted the dumbbells. I was putting myself in a position of insufficiency and living in a way that didn't allow me to be myself. I was a perfectionist and focused on the opinions of others. I was educating myself, but still from the point of view of sabotage as confirmation that something was wrong with me and needed to be changed. I have many, many memories about this, which are now starting to come back to me with all the emotions I couldn't express and became resistance and anger. Of course, I directed it against myself in various forms of sabotage in relationships and social relations. Of course, I attracted other people who showed me how far such resistance can go, and this is how I met Sensei. It was an equally traumatic experience at the level of the individual, the person and my feelings. Fortunately, this relationship was interrupted, but I remember one day when we were standing together in the temple and I asked the question: When! In such an environment, when can I tell myself that I'm okay?! That's when I realized it and watched the mature man change, and his eyes said it all, even though we didn't even say a word after that... something snapped in that moment, and I started to realize that all I wanted was acceptance, just as much as he did. From this human level to the level of my encounters with people I was lucky enough to meet, I find a place of our connection. Certainly this human experience is part of the picture, but now I am beginning to >>>>>> integrate Consciousness <<<<< into what it means to be human and experience this world collectively.

Well said "an ease moves over us" This is what I've been longing for all this time. More acceptance has come 🙂 With it, a new perspective on things and my situation. You could say the dust of confusion has settled. Now it's hard to decide what to continue and what is still part of the past I've been dragging with me.

Incredible 💥 We're on the same page. But something holding me back. In my relationship, I see that part of this person's identity is highly controlling and narcissistic. I can ask myself what part of me this appeals to? What part of me attracted me to this relationship? Then, at some point, I can consciously choose whether the ego-level relationship is what I want to experience or whether I surrender my old identity for greater trust and connection with the source. The obstacle will be the fearful old identity, which sees the threat of losing a close relationship and suffers because of it. It appears when I feel fear over losing my story... I can carefully and thoughtfully look through this lens and surrender it in favor of something greater ❣️✨️❣️

We work in couples therapy. Interestingly, meetings are held with two therapists, which allows for different perspectives, sometimes creating dynamic counterpoints. This forces us to reflect on our own thinking and better understand your behaviors. What you wrote in the group is true! Without a sense of trust and awareness of our parts, especially the wounded, unnoticed parts, we cannot enter a conscious relationship. Otherwise, you stumble at the threshold, and the relationship becomes a field of ego games, habitual reactions, and fear-driven control. There's a lot to do here, but above all, what you wrote about: knowing yourself intimately and respecting your choices. 🤝 I completed the first part of the Values ​​exercie. Yes 😀 I still have questions!

Thanks so much for sharing this material It helped me develop the next stage of my core value mandala ✨