No cigarettes! No vaping! No “zyns”! Now if I can just get off sugar & processed foods…

Been a minute since I have posted on here! I’m out in the world on a Friday night, and I really want to smoke a cigarette right now… but it’s been over 4 months since my last one, so I have opted to open up Skool and quickly make this post instead. Spoke to @Taylor Gray on the phone today and he reminded me to post. Appreciate him for keeping me accountable.

I found a quote that I like: "...this sense that in spite of everything which of course is, I suppose, the ultimate mystical conviction, in spite of pain, in spite of death, in spite of horror, the universe in some mysterious sense is all right, capital A capital R..." - Aldous Huxley I've yet to take the action I need to take (getting in touch with estranged NA sponsor, possibly finding a new one, getting back into stepwork), but I'm slowly becoming more willing to believe that I will feel a greater sense of freedom once I finally do it. Baby baby steps. 110 days nicotine-free today.

BACK IN THE SADDLE GUYS. Finally reeling it in from the weekend of debauchery lol. Had a great session with Glenn today and I’m currently on call with @Evan Seligman, banging out some more work for the course. My work for today was to watch the second video on the Lesson 5 path. Lesson 5 is great, so far I could see this lesson being compressed into a mini-heartfinders. So much meat . That’s all for today 🥳 We’ll be back again tomorrow

Back at it again. It's becoming extremely apparent that I have to finish working the 12 Steps of NA if I'm going to stay clean, heal my internalized shame, and break out of the tense state that I've been in lately. I keep avoiding this task. I almost called out of work today so I could focus on that. The consequences would've been minimal, but I didn't want to let down my boss. And I'm afraid to call my sponsor, because I think I want to find a new sponsor, and I don't want to let him down. So apparently I have a fear of letting people down! Gotta get over that fear. On the other side of fear lies freedom...