@Renee Van keulen eggs and veggies sounds like a good meal to start the day with. I'm trying to get more veggies in my diet. I'm a picky eater, grew up in a family of picky eaters, especially my dad, who never met a vegetable he liked, and my mum hated cooking so she would only cook what he would eat and we all had to eat the same. So I don't cook and struggle to find veg I like. However I do find that most things are pretty good if you roast them, so maybe I just need to roast a bunch of veggies and throw them in an omelette in the morning 😁 Thanks for the inspiration 🙏

@Renee Van keulen sounds good

Wow, I could've written that Deb, (apart from the corporate world bit😁) I hear ya. Let's do this together ❤️

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I'm right here with you. I've always avoided commitments, responsibility and accountability, because I think I will fail and let everyone down, and everyone will judge me the way I judge myself. Better to keep that hidden and fake it for the rest of the world, while I continue to believe I'm useless and hopeless. Also, if I never try or never finish, I can't fail either, so yeah! Better to avoid life all together. Did you get to sign up for the cohort? One of the things I'm loving about it is the AI keeps track of everything you put in it so it calls you out on that negative bias. I think I'm doing nothing and failing and she points out every single thing I've actually done and achieved, being confronted with it like that really makes me aware of how much I dismiss or ignore everything I achieve and exaggerate every perceived failure. I'm not saying I'm achieving a whole lot yet but it wouldn't matter if I was, I wouldn't see it anyway. Knowing I'm not really doing as badly as I thought is a great step in the right direction, so I'm hopeful. Whether you are with the cohort or not try logging somewhere, every time you achieve even the smallest thing, they might not be as small as you think and it really adds up. Also, when you think you failed and feel that horrible rock in the gut feeling (at least that's how it feels to me) try writing about the feeling, describe it and exactly what you think you did or didn't do that was so terrible, I often find that when I take the time to really look at those excruciating feelings, the thoughts behind them are often ridiculous and lose their power when you really see them and writing it down is very different to ruminating about it in your head. I used to just try to avoid even acknowledging the existence of those feelings, I'd distract myself, try to deny or ignore it because I wanted it to disappear, but that doesn't work, it doesn't go anywhere until you face it head on. And it's like the wizard of Oz, it only has power if you don't look too closely at it because it feels like a big scary feeling but behind the scenes it's just a scared little kid, but you aren't really the scared little kid, you're all grown up now. I have to keep reminding myself of that. 😁

Hi Heather, congratu;ations on the screenplay, that's awesome. I am totally relating to what you are saying about feeling overscheduled and needing downtime. My husband is away and there are some obligations and responsibilities i'm having to take care of while he's away. It takes up a bit of time, but it's the fact that it's a departure from my normal routine and extra responsibility for things I don't usually have to think about, plus I am suddenly getting busy with other things and I was feeling exactly like you. I had to turn down an opportunity to get together with a friend to work on something this afternoon because I just need the time to decomress and get my scattered thoughts about all the stuff I'm not doing under control. Hang in there, it will pass. 😊