Morning thoughts… My morning has not started well, and I accept that, but I won’t repeat what happened. Once a fool (this morning), twice an idiot - so I'll make sure it doesn’t happen again. I will go on a walk to sort those thoughts, I’m not writing them down because the situation doesn’t get to be enforced. But it also took me out of my morning creativity so no deep thoughts are happening. I remind myself that I am doing this adventure consciously and not in survival mode. Earlier on I wrote about when I’m triggered, I feel it in my body. Now I know I need to take the time to emotionally regulate. When I was in survival mode, I always felt like this. It’s not a good feeling when the entire body is completely tense, the stomach hurts, and my brain is obsessing on something. We can’t help the physical reaction, but we must ensure we respond to it with any tools we have. It must be addressed or it will escalate. That does not mean accepting the situation. It means calming down, regulating, and getting out of survival mode. Do it properly so it can be a lesson with only a bit of pain. I’ve come a long way to even recognize this, so for that, I’m proud of myself. Time for a walk with Scruffy. Okay, I know I said I wasn’t going to do thoughts on my walk, but I’m on my fourth lap so I’m a little bit calmer and my brain is having those deep thoughts. I realize that whether we’re in survival mode or not, our values and our character traits are the same - at least our top five or 10. They might change order, like mine did when I removed myself from survival mode, but they’re still part of us. This does not mean there won’t be hiccups, or sometimes we have to sacrifice the value or a character trait because we literally are surviving, but they’re still within us. A good example is I knew I wanted to live in authenticity, sovereignty , and integrity - and I wasn’t - but those were still my values. I managed to say stay mostly in kindness unless I was poked 1000 times.

No morning thoughts today. Summit day 3 complete. Now how to organize and edit, and then get the short replays out for the weekend. Walking Scruffy thoughts… When we were doing the VIP conversation, Ann Marie was talking about taking time in our day to think. Today I chose to just walk Scruffy. I pondered how I would handle my summit during this walk, but I did not use my phone for notes. I simply enjoyed the fresh air and my time was Scruffy. Afternoon thoughts… I’m happy. I’m testing the breadmaker out for fresh bread. Total experiment because I’ve never used one before. I am trusting YouTube and a random homesteader. Late in the afternoon thoughts… Time to work on my summit. I think I will start with creating a PDF of all the free gifts. Once that’s finished, I’ll figure out what to do next. I will stay in the present moment so I don’t get overwhelmed. That’s Jennifer Dawn‘s advice from the summit - one Reese‘s Piece at a time, just like ET. It’s after 3am… seriously! I finished the Free Gifts attachment and sent it out in a newsletter - also announcing a morning email with a surprise. Nothing like committing to a free “catch up” weekend when you have never done that. Hence 3am. But I am happy to say, all the short version interviews were downloaded into YouTube, then added to a funnel template I made, and I updated the VIP Payment funnel. Damn… I’m proud of myself for that. They both worked first try! Tomorrow I have to finish editing the speakers’ conversation, then I will continue from there… Goodnight - or good morning depending on where you are!

Afternoon walking thoughts – Summit continued Today was day two of the summit - I’ll say five amazing speakers even though I was one of them. I messaged Mary after who’s a fellow speaker and asked her how my talk was and she said I did really well and she wouldn’t lie. She told me she wouldn’t lie because she says it as it is because that’s part of her business. A bit disappointed at the support, but that’s my own fault. When we know, we know - and when we expect something else, that’s on us. This has been a great life lesson for me. Awareness is everything, and not everybody has awareness. I only had one technological glitch, and everybody messaged me, but I couldn’t see the message until finally Heather came off of mute and told me that they couldn’t see my screen share or hear sound. It took 10 minutes for them to get my attention, and I told Kimberly next time that happens to simply yell because that would’ve gotten my attention, but she had messaged me on messenger. I certainly wasn’t looking at messenger. I was already trying to share screen and be my own co-host. It’s super important that whenever possible to have a co-host. I also talked to Mary after because I wanted her feedback on how to get more eyes on the summit. She also gave me some really good pointers. I told her I wanted to have four summits per year. She says I’m competing with people like Tony Robbins and she listed a bunch of names of people who also have Summits that are a few days, and people just don’t have the time. She gave a bunch of suggestions. Some are to cut it into shorts for social media. I could go back to my original idea of emailing them, although I noticed not very many emails get clicked, but I’ll figure it out. I am going to create a funnel, just like the VIP page, for the short form of replays, and maybe release them three at a time. Actually maybe two at a time I’ll have to figure that out. It could even be one at a time. Mary also had the suggestion that may be do the interviews on a specific day of the month like for March do it every Monday in March and do three interviews. That would be about one hour 45 minutes. That still seems like I’m competing with Netflix. OK obviously I’m indecisive on this one and we’ll just trial and error until it works.

Morning thoughts - Summit day The good news is I didn’t sleep in. I don’t even have time for morning thoughts right now - I have too much to do. I’ll be back later. I’m back. What a day of emotions. My summit went well, in that I got the support from my soul family that made it something to be proud of. Of course I mixed up my words and stumbled and had to repeat myself, but that’s why it’s nice when you have just your friends hanging out with you. Instead of editing, the three hour recording and putting me in, I just have a video at the beginning of my interview, and I will just make up a funnel to email out to all the no VIP with a link, and I will just post the shorter videos into the funnel page, and email out a link that will work for the two days and then I will deactivate the funnel. That also gives me a template for my next summit. The only thing that’s annoying is I have to put the short versions on YouTube as well. The reason I’m still up is because I’m waiting for YouTube to finish loading the videos and the Internet cuts off at 1:30am It’s 1:05am. I am learning so much as I do this Summit. One thing I am really smitten about is I figured out how to use my iPad and iphone together, and that was a huge challenge. Of course, there were people on the call that I could make cohost so they could let people in if I was busy. That helped a lot because it relieves some stress, so thank you to Amy and Heather. I appreciated your help. I have been editing the videos for tomorrow since then. It sucks to have to cut big chunks out, but I guess that’s the difference between the free version and the VIP. Nobody knows what they weren’t told, so what kind of goes with the theme anyways. I just want to put it down in writing, that I am proud of myself. This is something I wanted to do for a very long time. The feeling in my chest that I actually did what I set out to do is amazing. I realize many people, probably most people, don’t take actions towards their dream or vision, because they don’t even know what it is.

My morning thoughts were not going in a positive way, so I skipped them, and instead I’m taking Scruffy for a walk, so these are thoughts while walking Scruffy the dog. My walking thoughts, with Scruffy, was pretty much a chapter of a book so I will save it for later. I have so much editing to do on my interviews for my summit, and getting everything ready for tomorrow – which is really today because it’s 2 AM. It was a really mixed emotion kind of day. Once I somewhat grammatically, correct my walking thoughts, I’ll post it. I forgot how much I liked my nature walks. I think I’m on my own for tomorrow’s summit and that disappoints me. However, that’s my own fault for having any expectations. The support from my speakers has been amazing and I am so grateful for that. As I listen to the interviews as I edit them, I just feel so Inspired and I know I’m on the right path. I did get the five videos for tomorrow edited. After the summit tomorrow, I will have to edit four more for Thursday. In the morning, I will also have to post in the community builders that my summit is happening. I’m concerned that my message will just get buried so I wanted to do it in the last minute, maybe 15 minutes before. I haven’t heard from Tatiana, so I hope she’s able to promote my summit. It’s really not too late, and I will be having a “catch up” weekend to watch the replay, but just for Saturday and Sunday, and not the VIP Q&A. But the end result is that I will hang a white sheet off the bunk bed, to use as a backdrop for my virtual map. I will then share videos from my iPad, and cohost with my phone to check the chat and let people in. I’m sure someone will help co-host. I’m not anxious, but I am tired. I’m just really proud of myself for doing this summit. Sometimes you just don’t realize how much courage stepping out of our comfort zone takes, especially when we have lived our life not being seen or heard. It’s a new day.