Yvonne’s Crazy Adventure December 13, 2025 · Women's Empowerment Community

Yvonne’s Crazy Adventure December 13, 2025

Morning thoughts…

My morning has not started well, and I accept that, but I won’t repeat what happened. Once a fool (this morning), twice an idiot - so I'll make sure it doesn’t happen again. I will go on a walk to sort those thoughts, I’m not writing them down because the situation doesn’t get to be enforced.

But it also took me out of my morning creativity so no deep thoughts are happening.

I remind myself that I am doing this adventure consciously and not in survival mode. Earlier on I wrote about when I’m triggered, I feel it in my body. Now I know I need to take the time to emotionally regulate. When I was in survival mode, I always felt like this. It’s not a good feeling when the entire body is completely tense, the stomach hurts, and my brain is obsessing on something. We can’t help the physical reaction, but we must ensure we respond to it with any tools we have. It must be addressed or it will escalate.

That does not mean accepting the situation. It means calming down, regulating, and getting out of survival mode. Do it properly so it can be a lesson with only a bit of pain. I’ve come a long way to even recognize this, so for that, I’m proud of myself.

Time for a walk with Scruffy.

Okay, I know I said I wasn’t going to do thoughts on my walk, but I’m on my fourth lap so I’m a little bit calmer and my brain is having those deep thoughts.

I realize that whether we’re in survival mode or not, our values and our character traits are the same - at least our top five or 10. They might change order, like mine did when I removed myself from survival mode, but they’re still part of us.

This does not mean there won’t be hiccups, or sometimes we have to sacrifice the value or a character trait because we literally are surviving, but they’re still within us. A good example is I knew I wanted to live in authenticity, sovereignty , and integrity - and I wasn’t - but those were still my values. I managed to say stay mostly in kindness unless I was poked 1000 times.

But what I realized on this walk is it’s our behaviors. They keep us in survival mode because we’re in fight, flight, freeze, or fawn. We don’t have the brain width to focus on who we really are. We are so tunneled vision (which you better be if you’re in true survival mode because if a mountain lion is chasing you, you don’t wanna care what your hair looks like when you’re running).

This morning, I witnessed as an outsider, what true survival mode looks like to those around you, especially when you’re in it and you don’t even know. I was there for years. It was like seeing a little video of my old self in motion. Because that’s what it was - I was in motion.

And that motion was all external. When we’re in survival mode, we don’t have time to go internal because we are coping with what’s around us.

I just stopped in my tracks and took a photo to post below because it shows what happens when you switch from survival to thriving. How many people are out there right now that are completely missing the beautiful things around us.

And this is not about money and it’s not about things. It’s about being. When you’re in survival mode, you don’t even have the capacity to be.

And what that means - you miss walking a dog on a beautiful day, the weather is wonderful, it’s almost Christmas, the grass is green, the sky is blue. The birds are chirping. The dog is happy. The air feels good. The ladybugs are flying on me - I can count their spots.

And that’s just right now. That’s not the whole day - that’s this second. But we’re all so busy - to me that also means survival mode - that we don’t look up and see what’s around us. We only see what’s right in front of us with such tunnel vision that we’re missing life.

I’m not talking about when we’re working on something we’re passionate about, because you could say we get tunnel vision then too. I’m talking about when you’re just working through life’s To Do list, in the motion, but not the feeling.

None of my situation physically changed, other than what country I’m in, lol. But the reason I could act on that adventure was because I was living the adventure, not surviving.

The truth is, when I was surviving, I never went on a vacation, not even a weekend.

Probably the only reason I remain somewhat connected to nature was because my kids love nature so much so we went out there regularly. This made me realize how much it helped me, so often I would go for walks at night just to calm down.

I think that’s actually what regulated my body, but now that I’m out of the thick of it (I’m actually still partially in it), I see that what I thought was not actually correct. I can’t even imagine what physical elements I would have right now if I hadn’t gone for those walks. Because even with those walks, I still had arthritis, migraines, and stomach issues.

Being in survival mode is supposed to be temporary. We all know that.

That’s where a disease comes from – dis-ease. That’s why so many people are sick. We’re not listening to our bodies, not listening to our intuition. We have everything we need everything. It’s inside of us, we just have to have this silent time.

So now that my six laps around the acreage are coming to a close, I’m going to go back in and edit yesterday’s speaker video, and get that done. I’ll work for a couple hours while the house is empty.

I asked if they were going to Walmart because I really need a chicken Caesar salad, but they said no. No to Walmart, just to clarify.

I don’t know how Kimberly expects me to buy food that I need when she keeps going into town without me. And what is super fascinating about the whole food thing, is that what they are eating is exactly what I used to eat, even four months ago. But now that I’ve changed stuff around a bit, all I want is a chicken Caesar salad.

Maybe that’s a sign. that when your frequency changes, you just don’t want to have all the breads and comfort foods in your body every day. They’re still delicious and I still love a good piece of fresh bread hot out of the oven, but it’s not what I want. I lived off that stuff my entire life, and I have a great appreciation for it. It’s not the food itself as far as taste, but how it makes my body feel.

And because I am now paying way more attention to my body and what my intuition is telling me, I understand. But as a society, what we are eating as our every day meals is comfort food. This just shows how much comforting we need because we’re not living our actual authentic lives.

Bedtime thoughts…

I created another funnel today, but I haven’t tested the triggers to ensure it’s correct. I have to decide whether to set up a new funnel or keep it when I have. I am partial to keeping it all under one so it’s not so confusing. I like to keep things all in one place.

I haven’t finished editing the interview yet, but I was working on other stuff for my community. I have to get the zoom set up for magnetic marketing, but to do that I have to go into a video from a few weeks ago. I don’t even know what I did today, but the day flew. It was a pretty good day though

Kimberly and her friend went to a movie in town – will I ever get my groceries? I made her son and I scrambled eggs and cheddar sandwiches and we had a great conversation for a couple hours after that. We talked about all kinds of things - he has an amazing memory, and he absolutely loves his books. He said they’re the thing he’s most attached to. That’s interesting because I had such a hard time donating my books too. I think I got rid of about a third of them, but I couldn’t do more.

The keyboard on my iPad case quit working tonight, mid sentence. That has slowed me down dramatically. I think it’s more because I keep typing on the keypad instead of on the iPad. I don’t know what happened, but I don’t like it one bit.

The outstanding thing is it’s 11:13 PM, and I’m about to go get ready for bed. I was going to take a nap earlier today, but then I wouldn’t be tired earlier tonight. I have to get up at eight for church tomorrow, and I was not going to go there tired.

Everything I didn’t get finished, is simply going to have to wait until tomorrow. I think there are two church services, so I may be going to both. I really enjoy them, and actually would’ve liked to go to last Sunday’s evening service because it was a different minister. However, I really did have to get my summit stuff done.

Hopefully my after midnight bedtimes are over for now. It’s not that I wanted to do them, is that stuff needed to get done. I understand now that sometimes we just have to get it done, we have to make sure it’s not a habit.

So until tomorrow…

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