Finding my way back · The Healing Circle

Finding my way back

I was doing so well. Doing all the right things. Reading the right books, stuck to the right habbits and being so productive. Then the day came where I fell back into old habbits. I held onto hope that my ex girlfriend might give us another chance based on my huge growth lately and even spiritual awaking. Our love was (for me still is) so big and complete. One Friday morning she wrote me a message that she did not want contact anymore and needed that to move on in peace. I totally understand and respect that. It still hurt and took away all the hope I had left. Then came the job interviews that didn’t go well, the ghosting of recruiters and demotivating experiences. All this made me lose the drive I had..well partially. I still see it as failure and not something I want. I feel so good working on myself, meditating, reading many books, being part of this beautiful community. Perhaps I need to be alone for a while and is rest not as bas as I make it out to be. What do you think? Ironically enough as I’m writing this a song is playing in the background “I’m only human, of flesh and blood born to make mistakes..” Setbacks like these hit me hard and I am struggling to get back to the place I was before. I miss it. I miss how and who I was there. I am still that same guy just the lifestyle and habbits suit me better. I am making my way back.

Just wanted to get this out and share it with you all. Perhaps it resonates or you have you advice. Wishing you all a wonderful weekend ❤️🙏🏼

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