Losing my sight, Finding my vision · The MAGDALENE Network

Melissa VanDyke

Jul 9 • 🌹Share Your Mary Story

Losing my sight, Finding my vision

The slow process of losing my vision

I had no idea it was happening

I was ambitious

Always focused on potential possibilities

"Anything is possible!" Was my motto

Then a slow buildup of realizing no one else really cares

A thought that everyone is silently wishing I would stop shinning the light on everything

Feeling them rolling their eyes because I am explaining how things could be done if we just all worked together

And finally allowing the final nail that shut me down

Fine you win, I will shut up

Not even thinking that obviously I was the one in this position because of my vision

But I realize now I let it go because I decided I don't have the authority

So why try to force people to care

"Why do I even care" became my new moto

And this shift led me toward a path that would be my rock bottom

A path I look back on from my new now true self

After years of learning to remember her

And all I feel is gratitude

Every single feeling of despair

And every single feeling of remembering

Of what it takes to build a new way of being from the inside-out

Uniting my highest self and my shadow

Requiring me to first allow myself to meet them

Believe that they were real

And engaging them

The journey can't be repeated exactly the same by any two people

Each one as unique as the person

For me it was walking in nature, which led me to Tarot and building a journallong practice for self discovery, leading to deep shadow work, which led me to Occult studies and the Laws of Universe, and then implementing deeper meditations and opening to signs.

Those signs led me to Archangel Metatron, Mother Gaia, Goddess Isis, and then straight to Mary Magdalene.

Magdalene has taught me about embodiment right when I was ready

She showed me how to connect dots inside

How to experience my soul fully and my connection to love

The limitless love inside us all that must first be turned to self and then is able to overflow to all

Building my vision now is like giving birth -> the creation is not mine to control, the vessel (my own body + mind + soul) of creation is mine to nurture

Placing meaning is my magic, where I place meaning is up to me

Leading my inner elephant (soul's desire) wherever it wants to go is so much more enjoyable than forcing my ego to pay attention to my heart

This vision of living couldn't exist in my mind until I experienced the contrast necessary to know what is actually possible

Now I know- with my own experience and inner truth- that anything is truly possible

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Losing my sight, Finding my vision