I wrote this the other day and thought I would share from my journal xoxo
Dear Mary Magdalene -
Like I always [do with everything], I feel the pull to just assume I already understand your teachings, your energies, your reminders.
Something inside me, which seems to be my version of "overthinking," begins the lullaby of telling me gently over and over that this is already felt.. something I already "get". Calls me to go experience more - gather more info + more learning.
But this time I refuse.
I have never devoted myself to something that was so clearly right for me spiritually. That brought so much clarity. That showed me so much unconditional love.
How to love - How to receive love.
How to understand what love actually is.
All my life I knew deep down love was all that matters. And I could never figure out how to make things arrange to fit that belief.
Inside there were so many conflicting beliefs I didn't realize needed to be cleared.
You showed me the process - You knew my calling.
You trusted me.
And now I continue to trust you too.
As you whisper to me not to look away [from what you are always looking at].
Farther up is further in.