A Story of Sacred Union · The MAGDALENE Network

A Story of Sacred Union

First, Thank You in advance for letting me share such a long post.... I just felt strongly to share today because this community has been so critical in my healing journey. Sending all my love to you all!

I have been obsessed with the yin/yang symbol for as long as I can remember. The whole idea that nothing is meant to be extreme always resonated with me. My wedding cake even had the symbol on it as we felt it was a great to way to represent how we always choose to honor who the other person is even while respecting each other and assisting each other (we had a very untraditional wedding held in our home!).

How easy it is to move into extreme land has always fascinated me. It always felt like that is why tending the balance seemed so important, because it was hard, it was clearly the right thing to do -- as it seemed to be the case with most things that were the "right" thing to do.

As I began my journey inward a few years ago, I started learning the Tarot to use it as a tool to begin a journaling practice. This quickly turned into also facilitating my own shadow work. I am a Sagittarius sun and rising (and Leo moon), so the deep desire to understand the unknowable has always called to me. Ironically, I had never really spent time figuring out what that really meant to me before because I was so busy "finding" and "learning" and "striving for" the answers in the external world.

Through this shadow work, I quickly started to see how much attention I would give to the idea of contrast, duality, polarity, paradox. I started spending hours writing about these concepts, what they mean to me, why they matter to me, and where I observe these energies all around me.

In the last several months, since joining this group of amazing women and showing up for myself in a new way and showing up for other women (and of course, furthering my embodiment of Mary Magdalene's teachings) the idea of a sacred union (or sacred marriage) has emerged. It puts words to something I had been feeling inside, more than just the loving integration of past versions of myself with my consciousness, of where it all had started.

I found myself drawing huge pictures (literally going to the store just to get larger paper because I had to make it bigger for some reason LOL!) of the yin/yang symbol and exploring the visual idea of yin/yang being within each yin and yang forever along with the elements. Like, there is no "pure yin" or "pure yang"-- it is ALL, BOTH- ALL-ALL! Attached is a picture of one of them, with the colors representing the 4 elements 🙂

So I was clearly not only both divine and human, but also fully "masculine" and "feminine" energy. How these energies show up for any of us is completely unique to the person, as unique as our fingerprint- but they are both there and when I had started this journey most of the shadow work I was doing was to unbury the feminine energy I had piled so much dirt on top of she was completely invisible (and causing me much pain because she was so unseen-- and I had NO idea this was why). As I look back at this experience now, I am not even crying. I have such a profound connection to her that I know could not exist if I had not had to work so hard to uncover her and understand her. The journey of burying her was the exact outcome I needed to be right here, now.

Then this week, the ideas of my higher self and my shadow uniting was somehow how my soul was able to remember what it is remembering lately. This must be part of the sacred union. Both energies must exist in this physical body and when they are united, there literally is no need for any illusions anymore. The openness just allows whatever needs to come up to come up, as the exact thing needed in the moment (the releasing IS THE harvest).

So there is no reason to close anymore. And the brain is able to free up all that energy that it had been using to hold illusions together so I wouldn't freak out.

And that energy can now be used toward brining in more light within me (these are the only words I can use for what this healing feels like). 🌹❤️ Thank you-xoxo

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A Story of Sacred Union