Did I actually get it? · The Consciousness Path

Did I actually get it?

Listening to Ralston on repeat. In ‘Whereof one cannot speak’ Peter explains at length how the self came about in the first place i.e. how it was ‘invented’. OMG it’s an INVENTION! I am an amazing genius body and the self is just an invention. That was huge for me - it’s an invention not who I am. My self has been driving me mad, getting on my nerves and keeping me awake for years. I felt an immediate drop off in the ‘racing’ inside aka anxiety and had a great sleep score last night with lower heart rate on my Oura ring.

Years ago I remember reading in one of Peter’s earlier book something like - ‘once you transcend the self you won’t miss it at all’. Those words really struck me at the time - how could you not miss yourself ? It’s only day 2 but he’s absolutely right, of course, not missing my self at all.

I ask ‘did I get it?’ as it doesn’t seem possible for it to really be that easy - why did it take soooo long? Who cares - let’s hope it doesn’t come back - I’ve put a bouncer on the door.

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