I haven't written a song in almost 10 years, nor have I revisited them.
It has been terrifying to attempt an open mic since I blanked out the first time and ran off the stage after the first verse.
But on Monday, something came through, I came home, and I wrote a song out of nowhere.
It felt like a channelled message, I played until my fingers hurt, and I sang it with tears streaming down my face.
Then I got a message from above (I call her source) and she told me to sing it at the memorial for a dear family friend tomorrow.
Every part of me said, "I am not ready." I sat with my SPARK method and worked through my fears.
- that it didn't feel SAFE to sing in front of others.
- that PLAYING in front of people had to be perfect
- that taking ACTION was attached to at least months of practice
- In REFLECTION, I noticed that I was given an opportunity with a timeframe to step into this version of me I had always seen as myself....a musician.
- that to KINDLE this fire, I need to lead with love.
So I recorded the song, shared it with the world to overcome visibility (nothing bad will happen)
and reach out to my community so that I can stand at the front of an auditorium and sing this song
In honour of the people we have lost, we are never alone.
*****So what are you scared of doing?*****
I want to cheer you on, as you have all supported me.