Day 5/90 Photos: Rory on the trails and a precarious broken tree balancing and my workouts Struggle: Once again I’m struggling with my Dad’s decline. He is so miserable and agitated and confused. It was not a good visit at the psych ward today. I’m trying to figure out what good I can turn these feelings into and how I do that. I hate these feelings. I was pretty much useless professionally the rest of the day after the visit. Totally exhausted. Win: I did not eat my feelings, which is a huge win. (1) No alcohol I did not drink today. (2) Movement It was a recovery day. My legs were talking to me after all the squats Monday with my trainer. I did get two short, deliberately slow walks in (one with Rory on the trails 😀) and got to yin yoga class tonight. (3) Hydration I hydrated well today. (4) Nutrition Somehow, I ate extremely well today. Regular protein bar and shake breakfast, tuna for lunch, salmon and veggies for dinner with some peanuts. No candy, no other nonsense. I was too tired for it. (5) Mindset I listened to my morning guided meditation. (6) Community I had reached out to a friend last week who’s been through some family stuff with Alzheimer’s. I chatted with him for about 1/2 hour about these feelings and dealing with difficulties like this. It was a really good chat. Tough day. Feelings of deep sadness, anger, helplessness, emotional exhaustion. Glad it’s over. I’m off to bed.