I’d been smoking for 5 years straight.. every single fucking day. And i convinced myself that i needed it. Therefore the neural connections and the dependency became strong. I’d try to quit many times. Always relapsed… why? Identity. Weed was my identity. It became so solidified into who i was, no matter what I did, i’d always relapse back to my old self. So i decided to finally rewire that part of my brain. Meditation. Clarity. Then i had to face it. Started to visualise myself without weed. Increased the elevated emotions. Became aware of the problem. Started being conscious. and decided, just like you would decide to put on your shoes, i decided to quit. 3 days sober, lets fucking go. I asked myself, would I seriously be smoking every day in my desired reality? Would the best version of Taylan smoke himself into oblivion on an hourly basis? After getting out of survival mode — the answer became clear. No. Then it was time to shift into my Identity 2.0 I feel powerful, alive, zest and I wish i did this sooner. Anyway, everything happens for a reason. Now, i can help people quit these problems. That’s another skill I added to my belt. Lets fucking go boys.

I was on a 4 hour flight last week and it’s always been a habit of mine for years to listen to podcasts from the moment i enter the airport until i land at my destination, i find it more beneficial than cheap entertainment/escapism hacks. that being said I had downloaded an ekhart tolle guided meditation of about 30 mins and once it finished i started paying attention to my heart beats which the only reason i can hear was because i had noise canceling esrbuds in and a noise canceling headphones on top of it 😆…… short story longer, i entered this transcendent state and i know this is subjective to everyone but it’s as if i could view myself from the 3rd person and was walking in the airport once i arrived connor mcgregor orangutan style and it wasn’t coming from a place of arrogance just from a place of high confidence that i was taught to suppress because it made ppl around feel inferior, insecure and insignificant. now im stuck chasing that meditation high that really helped me nail my meeting which took place in another country and based on mediocre people i should’ve been jet lagged or something maybe 🤔 but even if u are it shouldn’t be used as a crutch to lean on for one’s own shortcomings.

i'm keen to create you guys some guided breathwork exercises and meditations that you can use at any time. little update from my life: been working 11 hour shifts, back to bacj (another 5 days left and then back to my normal schedule of 2 days per week) i've built some tension and back pain, and been really tested with my beliefs, perception and state of energy. it;s no secret im actually trying to quit my job right now, so to have to wrk 12 days of 11 hour shifts back to back is a massive test for me.. doing well.

A little update of things recently :)

I’ve even just now clarified my goal i to something more ambitious and more clear. 200 skool members. No time limit, no due date, just now. I’m practising the exact same mental movie meditations you are. I’m visualising my father congratulating me and being so happy for me for achieving 200 skool members. I’m visualising living in the freedom right now, of total time freedom and not being forced to work certain hours for money. I’m visualising my father and i in bali living together, and seeing him super happy because i’ve been able tk achieve 200 skool members. Lets fucking go boys. Super keen for this one. My alignment will reflect thw results you’ll see realtime. We’re at 20 members already, internally.