Just wanted to update myself. Still struggling. Still aware. Hopefully meds ease the mental pain. Be strong all. 💚

I was just reflecting on my day today. I am happy. I can see the progress. Today been a good day for me mentally and physically. All that shadow work was worth it for me. 💚👽👍

Been having anxiety still but it is ok. I still trying to rewrite a nervous system stuck in panic mode.. I won't lie. Some days are real hard. Especially caught up in the moment. Yes. I donthe basic coping skills. Breathing and mediation. It helps. It's part of my process. It's slow and play mind tricks on me. The only thing I hold onto is the fact. That it does get better in time. With knowledge and practice I'm living. One day at a time. 💚

Oh Lord, I’m feeling alive!! The last 14 hours were intense. I found myself in a situation with only a few options. Defend with my hands or my words. From the on lookers, I knew I was safe, but I stayed on high alert. I chose words. Faith. Accountability. Not fear or control. I spoke when it mattered, listened closely, stayed calm, but the insides were on high alert. I knew the police were on the way, and the other residents were protected. It could have gone worse. If I’d reacted like old me, I might have hit him. But what would that have said about me or my soul? Sometimes being the bigger person, not reacting to animal instincts, is strength, not weakness. Someone has to see reality as it is. I’m thankful. Thankful people saw my strength. Thankful it ended safely. Thankful he might get the help he needs. Thankful the house is back to normal. I’m in a good space. Slowly laughing, joking, feeling my nervous system return. Be safe 🙏. We are all one, I feel. 💚

Yeah. Whew is right. Been off for a while and had a stressful morning. Attending an appointment I couldn't miss. Without getting into to much details. My flight to fight and nervous system was on high alert. I did what I had to do, but my energy was drained. I'll be honest. It takes me like 3 hours to come down from high alert. I'm thankful I took care of my outside affairs. Now just rest and trust. Faith and Accountability. Fear and Control. Honest?? It was 50/50. 🤣😂 Still alive and fighting. Peace and love 💚