Ego or Shadow? Or both? · New Earth Revolution

Ego or Shadow? Or both?

Hello all. I have been doing some intensive shadow work around my sister wounds the past several months. I had a massive realization about projecting a wounding that I came into this world with. So much deep sorrow has come up with it. Which is great🙃 I am feeling stuck on something else that is edging into this that has come around around again and I can’t seem to find the connection and I figured why not reach out and ask. The trigger has been my best friend of 20 years…does not do any healing work but uses the language around it all. Continues to tell me who I am and gaslights and generally has not much awareness around her part. I have learned a lot about my part in this, and I see us parting ways and probably should’ve done so a while ago, however we currently co own a home we both live in different suites and are actively preparing for her to buy me out. So I’m still here a bit longer. Now, the most recent blow up which often feels like she’s pulling me in, has given me the gift of the realization of a deep sister wound…buuuuut…I’ve asked her to stop texting me because she just keeps throwing stuff at me that has no relevance. To the point I had to block her from communication over messenger and texting. I am super triggered by this…it has come up a lot for me that I feel absolutely angry and bitter over people who do zero healing work at all and have zero awareness who try and act like I am the problem. Or that they’re somehow smarter or more intelligent with their perceptions when I know it’s from a limited and unhealed perspective. It has happened my whole life…with my family, and earlier fitness and even partners in my life. I have always kept doing the work, leaving those situations and being grateful for the lessons. But I’m still triggered and wondering if this is my ego…like feeling bitter at how all the ‘stupid’ people are trying to tell me who I am when they don’t even know who they are. Or is it a past life shadow of some kind or wounding perhaps? Nothing is landing for me. So I’m asking if anyone feels or has felt like this and what came up for them? I’ve always been blunt and truthful and don’t sugar coat anything…but still feel so full of rage when it’s like the circus clowns are acting like I’m the stupid one here. Does this make any sense? Any insight would be appreciated. Thank you🙏🏻

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