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Big new realisation

Today I thought that there’s certain things that mirror back to me that I don’t fully trust myself.

I thought that is the core of everything in my life.

And that is also what most “gurus” would tell me or you. ;)

And I wanted to get deeper into that.

Alone ofc because I don’t fully trust anyone with my inner world. For now.

But something more powerful came into my awareness. Something more nuanced. That makes a huge difference.

(you might call that quantum leap. fancy label for just being an aware human being and processing at a high speed most of the time. And ofc once you also integrate, you will attract new different things in your life. It’s very natural and logical)

I am not actually lacking trust in myself.

It is not a matter of not fully trusting myself.

I am losing trust in the old lens that used to guide me.

Omfg

Let that sink in. 🧘🏻‍♀️

I am someone who struggles to fully trust people. And I have been navigating this. Came to the obvious conclusion that it mirrors me. Right? That’s how things work.

Yes. Valid.

But…

There’s nuances. (my new favorite word now lol)

Indeed I am not trusting fully… the old lens. (It’s so extremely trippy how this has showed to me lately. I felt all realities and possibilities at once, right in front of my eyes. It’s like I observed the collision and stayed with my most clear lens now in tge present moment. Thankfully I stayed grounded and navigated the intensity beautifully, now looking back)

Indeed this reflects that I also do not fully trust others… Because the world, people are shifting…

As we speak.

We are in an in-between state.

Still shedding last tiny bits of old distortions.

But this is less about others now.

It is and had always been the inner shifts that cause the ripples.

So the focus is on myself.

How I relate to others.

How I allow myself to connect.

How I make peace with big part of my life being also a mission I took on to heal the grids (Even though this very thing I am not best at explaining. As for me it has just been natural, but I have always done more than I gave myself credit for. I have always been more significant than I have seen myself. I am trusted with this big important work and become more and more aware of my role and where I stand. And even though this is not important to me personally, because I know internally the truth and how we are all equally significant - I am learning to accept just being right here and recognising myself more in this little play full of roles. It’s so extremely grounding to accept the absurdity of life and at the same time be rooted in the eternal truth.)

How I see myself and them through a more clear lens.

Not the old lens that honestly feels so real. Because it never lacked love and compassion for others and myself.

It only had some blind spots. Or a bit of blurry vision here and there.

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